Up on her high horse

This girl has written quite a few times about her fantasies of medieval type tortures and especially their ability to be twisted and adapted into a modern context suitable for BDSM.

Torture is something she has a lot of strong feelings about.

From a humanitarian point of view it is something this girl disagrees with in a sort of current modern-day political context. Prisoners of any type have the right to fair questioning and a fair trial. Unfortunately that is not always the case.

In a historical context, some of the atrocities that have gone on in the past are horrific also such as during the times of the Tudors and both way before that and afterwards also. Human beings can be extremely cruel to one another and in the most inventive of ways.

So what makes BDSM different. What makes torture erotic? What makes some of those twisted ideas convertible to bdsm?

The short answer is – it just is. They just are.

Some things cannot be explained, the idea of being abandoned in a cell waiting for it to happen, being kept until her tormentor is done with her, and being pushed to the edge both physically and mentally are all things that appeal to this girl. The difference of course is the fact that it is her fantasy and she consents to it and actively pursues it happening. That is the key difference.

Grimly has adapted a lot of medieval and historical tortures into bdsm play. The rack, the scavengers daughter and also the wooden pony shown in the picture. Amongst other things. A friend also gave this girl a pear of anguish he had made but it is far too large to be used but its a good conversational piece ;) This girl has fantasized about those ever since seeing an insex video featuring one.

The problem of having a fantasy of torture is that it doesn’t always stay a fantasy when it’s happening. Time and time again this girl forgets what she is letting herself in for when she makes suggestions to him or even when she finds herself in a room alone with Grimly.

Whilst it is still erotic, and whilst she doesn’t want to stop sometimes it can be a bit of a test of physical endurance and also a game in her own head as to whether her body will cope with what Grimly does to it. But that is all part of the fun.

Recently Grimly got out the electric wooden pony again but this time suspended her over it as well as on it. So she was kept in the air with the help of the sit sling but then lowered onto the hanging pony, her feet stretched and chained wide apart so that the most delicate parts of her body had both the pressure of the pony and absolutely no way of avoiding the electrical contacts. Grimly, to be an additional bastard also added nipple clamps which may not seem a lot to some people but can hurt a lot when you find yourself already in a not so stable position.

Probably the worst part of the torture after the nipple clamps and the electric shocks administered right across her cunt, was the amount of pins in needles this position gave rise to. It certainly became a matter of enduring that and trying to concentrate on dealing with both the intended and unintended pain.

Unfortunately (luckily) this girl could not see Grimly’s face but supposed that it had his usual smug sort of evil bastard look ;)

Tiptoeing around the situation

Daniela Asked :

Have you ever done any predicament bondage with ballet boots? Like walking on a treadmill with your arms in a single glove? Or simply standing with a rope around your neck? (Not in earnest, I mean, the rope should be connected to the wall by a thin piece of thread; though without you knowing that

Have you ever been out in the open, wearing a single glove?

And is it right, that you will not take a ball gag with you to the lonely island? It was not on your list. Maybe you don’t like ball gags?

This girl has had ballet boots a very long time. A pair of ballet boots were the first thing Grimly bought this girl very early on in the relationship sort of cementing the idea that she would be his regular submissive for a very long time.

They have been used in all sorts of predicament bondage scenarios but also for overall effect as well seen as they often just sort of help finish off an image.   The following is one of this girl’s favourite pictures showing her ballet boots, shown together with an armbinder, hood and electrics in a sort of hogtie.

This girl hasn’t so far used the ballets on a treadmill, but she has used her pony boots on one. As you can see from the picture the bondage was extremely complex and secure and this girl had no option but to move in time with the machine. In case it ‘s not clear in the pictures the hoof boots do not have heels, but do have horseshoes and are very clompy!

A lot of the play this girl and Grimly do involves certain predicaments – for instance the stand he made for his birthday cake ensured this girl got electrocuted if she didn’t keep still.  However, this girl’s favourite type of predicament bondage is most definitely the wooden pony, which is shown here also with the tower of pain.  This particular one is electrified though Grimly does also have a non-electric version.  The way it works is that it is raised on chains to a point where this girl has to stand on tiptoes to avoid too  much pressure being exerted on certain sensitive areas, knowing that eventually she will fail. In the picture her body moving around as her feet tiptoed to find a not exactly comfortable but less painful position on the pony had the knock on effect of making her nipples jiggle and hurt due to the tower of pain also fastened around her. This girl is not sure why she likes medieval type devices so much…but there is just something that is such a turn on and such a head fuck from the modern versions that Grimly has created.

Regards outdoor bondage, this girl doesn’t recall wearing a single-glove in public but she has done pony play outdoors and also the odd ‘commando’ bondage shoot like the one in the ‘showing face’ post last week. Hopefully Grimly and this girl will squeeze in more outdoor bondage during the summer and also on holiday since they are going to Folsom this year and there showing off in bondage is pretty much expected! So watch this space! :)

Well, regards the desert island, what’s the point of taking a gag if no one can hear her apart from one evil bastard who completely lacks any sort of merciful feelings anyway? It’s like that old proverb about a tree falling in the wood when no one is there.

This girl doesn’t mind gags so much sometimes it helps her stop any protests that she might otherwise make, it takes the choice of speech completely away and it seems to make him even more sadistic.

It seems to be the more immobile this girl is and the less able she is to protest about her predicaments the more evil and twisted he gets….possibly not all that surprising ;)

The centre of attention

This girl has been a fan of a lot of the old insex stuff for a long time, pretty much really since Grimly introduced it to her at the start of their relationship to sort of explain some of the background of his ideas.

Since then this girl has fantasized a bit about doing photos similar to insex  – you know, slightly grainy with hints of the industrial, hints of the medieval, and strong connotations of humiliation and suffering. Many of this girl’s inspirations stem from varying types of torture such as medieval inquisition and modern-day interrogation.  This girl can’t explain why that is – it just is – it turns her on – simple as.

Perhaps one of the reasons why this girl would never get the opportunity to do this type of shoot is because she just does not have the figure. She’s working at it, but to do this type of bondage a certain amount of athleticism and stamina is required. There is of course something humiliating about being naked and the parts that she has hang ups about being on display – but it’s not a particularly sexy version of humiliation play – far from it!

The picture below is one of this girl’s favourite insex images showing a wooden pony with a difference, since the predicament is added that if the girl in the middle wobbles too much she’ll torture the breasts of the girls to her sides, and likewise unless they stand on their tiptoes they’ll hurt her too.

There haven’t been many times when this girl has been involved in predicament bondage with someone else. One time when  Velvet Claw visited Grimly used a hose system with the gas masks that made breathing shared (and difficult) and also when she’s been nose to nose with Alternative Mindsets but that is the main extent of it. It’s something that she’d like to try more of however, at some point.

This type of wooden pony torture appeals to this girl though because it is so overtly sexual. There are times (most times!) when this girl wants any sort of sexual torture to be very private and just between her and Grimly since it can involve so many moments where he keeps flipping the switch between pain and pleasure (often till it breaks completely and she can’t tell the difference – and that’s not bad lol) and it is so intense really that it just doesn’t feel right for anyone else to witness.

However, in the picture you can imagine almost as though the girls have done some sort of wrongdoing and this is their punishment to be sexually humiliated in public bondage. This girl likes the idea of a sort of fantasy world where that type of punishment might exist as opposed to public disgrace in the real world. It is one thing demonstrating bondage and kink in a hypothetical society that accepts it and another entirely to demonstrate it in a society that does not, and that would be disgusted and appalled if such a sight was to be witnessed by any passerby since they cannot consent to witness it.

In a hypothetical sort of semi-medieval world though where it was possible then this girl would inevitably want to be the centre of attention in this image. She would dread such a torture, she would fear it , she would feel embarrassed about the process of being stripped and hung up for all to see and would feel ashamed as her body would inevitably fail to conceal her arousal in spectacular style – as it always does, though at least normally only Grimly notices!

Far from a one trick pony

No matter what part of life is involved whether its professional or personal, you will always get people who judge you for what they know or think you can do, and not for your potential. Not for your ideas, not for your imagination, not for your dreams – but for what it says on the tin as it were. For what they can see, and maybe thats partly down to you as to what you present outwardly.

BDSM is no different. Many people will judge you based on first impressions, based on how you present yourself. This girl tries quite often not to think too conscientously about that, but its far from easy to do really. We all want admiration from our peers, to be respected, for people to want to get to know us and whilst there are certain attractions to being shut off from the world, in reality, its not really what this girl’s BDSM is about. Part of it is about the showing off, the presentation, the exhibitionism, and this is all quite weird for someone who in other aspects of life is actually quite shy!

It is really one of the side effects of living this sort of kinky existence, of feeling in possession of an ability to shock and impress other people with your endeavours when in your day to day life you are just an average person who holds down a job and a household. This girl has probably said it before but sometimes it feels almost as though her kinky side is almost like a secret identity a bit like Clark Kent and Superman…mildmannered, quiet, and un-noticeable by day and well…something else more interesting at night. Though funnily enough , there don’t ever seem to be any superhero films where the hero gets cruelly and sexually tortured do there? Or not as the main part of the plot anyway!

When this girl knows she is facing a likeminded audience, she tries to portray her bdsm life like it is. She doesn’t pretend to be something that she isn’t. She doesn’t pretend to be the perfect submissive when she knows she is not, or the perfect masochist for that matter. She hopes she comes across as intelligent and articulate but beyond that what people make of this is really very subjective. Some people will be maybe turned on by what this girl writes about. Some might be repulsed. BDSM and D/s is such a subjective experience that this girl would not want to attempt to alter that nor would she want to come across as saying ‘look this how you do it alright’ because she’s not saying that. There are probably a lot of people who wouldn’t enjoy this sort of existence, just as much as there are other submissives that this girl does not really envy and yet still enjoys learning about. The whole concept of ‘your kink is ok but not for me’ and the notion of openmindedness is so very important.

There are maybe times that when people glance at a post of this girl’s and make an opinion based on that one post. That happens with blogs. Sometimes you need to read a bit further though to get a full feel of the person.

A lot of people who first cast their eye over this girl might think she’s some sort of extreme gorean. She isn’t. Gorean that is. Extreme maybe, possibly, in some people’s opinions but then not in everyones. Yeah this girl writes like *this* but that doesn’t make her follow Gor its just the writing style she uses for her blog. She doesn’t believe in the theories of Gor in any way shape of form. They are stories and thats it, and, like anything else can be used as ingredients to form your own sort of BDSM and D/s personalised recipe…and can be used as inspriation…but yet…not here. This girl’s inspirations are drawn from a wide variety of places and people – history, film, reading other people’s experiences all sorts of things sort of assembled to suit her and Grimly.

This girl has recently found another place to express herself –Kinky Sex Link
– a sort of amalgamation of bloggers and links to do with kinky sex and BDSM. It looks like it may well be a lot of fun, though very much so in the early days at the moment – but hopefully it will be another source to gain inspriation and share ideas. This post will be cross-posted there, and its probably because this is a sort of attempt at making a first imperssion that this girl thought she’d write today a little about blogging and illustrate it with some kit that is sort of typical of what it is that she *does*.

Everything this girl does is really centered on the fact that she is owned by a man who has the ability to make her fantasies jump to life, but for a little creative construction time in his shed. This girl is, essentially, a guinea pig for home made bdsm and torture creations and loving every minute of that. Her Master’s ability to make toys not only saves money, but also means that everything fits just right, works just right, and is very personal and very effective. Yep, its definately a perk of belonging to him!

One of the creations that has recently got this girl and her Master a lot of attention is the electrified wooden pony, and is one of the top things that people coming to her blog seem to be looking for. Yes, gentital torture is definately one very fun and interesting aspect of kink and BDSM, the ability to sensually inflict pain upon an area designed for pleasure and procreation is incredibly erotic and yet also extremely tormenting and has been for centuries. This girl loves the concept of erotic torture, and medieval ideas being pervertified into modern day thrills minus decapitation and maiming of course!

The idea of the pony is that its a piece of wood that hangs suspended between the legs of the victim, it can be hightened and thus give the victim the dilemma of pressure being on her sensitive parts or on her tiptoes. Its sort of a way of illustrating the whole fun of torture and torment – its going to hurt and turn you on if you do x but also if you do y,and if you do z then you are really fucked! ;)

The pony Grimly made for this girl has the added feature of being electric and the metal tape across it is life when the whole thing is hooked up to the ET312 electrical box, and, based on stroke and strength, this whole experience can go from a moderate tingle to ‘oh my fucking god’.

Now, on this particular occasion, this girl was daft enough, yes , incredibly daft, to suggest that he combine the pony with the tower of pain. The tower of pain is NOT a device she enjoys at all. It is based on the idea of nipple clamps combined with a bit of bondage that enables the clamp chain to pull out and stretch instead of dangle down. It hurts. A lot. Maybe not too much more than clamps used just on their own, but maybe the psychological torment of the bondage and of the predicament adds a little something to this as well.

Yes. Oww.

This girl loves torture and bondage, and sensory deprivation and all manner of kinky activities. She is not just about doing one thing repetitively time and time again. She loves experimenting, learning new ideas and meeting new people and is currently at a totally different place with all of this than she was one year ago.

BDSM is not as much fun being stuck at one place as it is when it is progressive, and experimental.

BDSM is this girl’s drug and adrenaline, its what she does for fun, for thrills and for fantasy in a way that for her comes alive in a very real and exciting way.

Yeah…sure its an addiction, an addiction centred on practices of experimenting on what on earth her body can go through next and maybe, with some Doms, that would be a dangerous way to do this, but with someone that knows what they are doing and has the ability and creativity to keep her interested? Nah…it keeps on being different and fun and exciting :)

And here …some wooden pony pictures to leave you with…

Balancing act

Picture – electric wooden pony with arm bondage

This girl seems to get a lot of people looking for the wooden pony…so here….another picture of Grimly’s electric one. Ok for pussy torture it certainly is one of the most effective devices….

The wooden pony as you can see is a plank of wood suspended from the ceiling which can be adjusted higher or lower by a winch so that you have to stand on your toes with most of the weight and the stress being concentrated in one specific area…guess where!

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