Back in the swim of things…

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So this girl is pleased to announce her friend JG Leathers has updated his website! So, those of you that are fans of his, please check it out here  you might recognise a few of the people mentioned😉 Meanwhile, here’s another … Continue reading

Back to the future

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A wicked wednesday post – the theme this week is the past, present and future It’s possible you might have heard of a friend this girl has. He’s a kind of crazy and eccentric Canadian man who if it were possible would perhaps … Continue reading

All hands on deck

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Happy Valentines Day! Well so today is that time of year where people send cards, buy heart-shaped chocolates, send flowers and generally be a bit more romantic than normal. Yes ok sometimes to the point of being a bit cheesy … Continue reading

Turn me on

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So this girl finally got to try The Creature again in a comfortable (at least to begin with) reclining position. The build up had been quite intense and she very much appreciated the little sojourn in the garden!  Her body … Continue reading

A creature of habit

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This girl and Grimly spent their honeymoon with JG Leathers over in Canada. Some of the time was spent with Serious Bondage in San Francisco, and some over on Vancouver Island, but this girl ensured there was time to thank … Continue reading

A review of 2010

Well as this year goes out here is the review of this girl’s year of pervertery, with a bit about each month and a quote from the first blog of each month also! Feel free to browse the archives and the photo galleries for more info if you want to!

JANUARY

This girl started the year at a new year’s party trying to turn back time, by going upside down on a rotating bondage wheel! Mainly because she wanted to stay 29 a lot longer, as 2010 was the year she turned 30 and also because it was fun anyway :

Lots of countries and cultures have special traditions at new years from fireworks to singing auld lang syne and kissing that special someone to maybe some slighter more bizarre traditions.”

This girl also wrote about how Grimly is the man of her dreams despite being evil , twisted and down right insane!


FEBRUARY

February was this girl and Grimly’s fifth anniversary:-

This weekend was Grimly and thisgirl’s anniversary of first playing together. FIVE YEARS AGO!  What happened back then…“…….. the highlight for this girl was at bed time.

That first time this girl had woke him up and chucked a load of cold water on him, this year he got revenge!

This girl also wrote a post about romance in BDSM for Subwise she also wrote a couple of posts about dolls and about people transforming into the fantasy image of themselves.

MARCH

Traditionally question and answer month :-

The questions were :

Do you think kink.com is a moral site? Is moral porn possible?

Grimly, have you ever thought about mass-producing, marketing and/or licensing any of your creations?

Do you think body piercings were a good addition when it came to play?

My question is do you try and strain to delay the effects of the predicament, or as a masochist. do you try and make it hurt more.

This girl also started the first of a few installments of a story written mainly to seduce a certain person! So far those efforts havent’ come to very much apart from flirting but maybe in 2011?😉

APRIL

This girl was struggling with keeping up with the blog in April after a particularly long and depressing winter :

“To be honest, keeping up with this blog is getting a bit hard for her, its got to be a sort of chore, rather than fun. And, if it was up to her alone it would have ended. Though of course, it isn’t”

This girl also made a surprise visit to Grimly’s.

MAY

This girl had made a few visits to a fetish party in England this year (unfortunately due to a load of scene politics and bitchiness now going on with the venue there are unlikely to be any more visits there) :-

“This girl and Grimly went to a fetish party they semi-regularly attend a couple of weeks ago. Given they hadn’t played much prior to that this year, they decided to make the effort to try and play there…..”

This girl and Grimly and fellow scots Alternative Mindsets also went to stay with Geetwo & Maxi who had JG Leathers visiting, and this girl got to torment Alternative Mindsets in the creature harness…

Grimly also collaborated with JG…

JUNE

This girl invested in an eroscillator after having a small windfall of money burning a hole in her pocket :

“You’ll remember this girl asked your opinion on what she should buy with her £100. Well. This girl chose her need for intense orgasms over bondage (on this occasion)”

It has ended up being very useful! Also, this girl and Grimly went to the BDSM scrapheap challenge – which unsurprisingly he won!

This girl also started being a guest author on submissive guide.

JULY

This girl wrote about her interrogation fantasies :

“This girl has had an interrogation fantasy for a long time. Possibly it can go all the way back to being linked with what (with hindsight) can be seen as her earliest thoughts connected with BDSM . It’s what she remembers first – being aroused by old films with that sort of scene…”

Grimly unveiled a new harness he had made based partially on the creature, and also made a ‘robot mask’ which was then used to terrorise Alternative Mindsets when she visited with her partner….

AUGUST

This girl started the month with a really good brainwashing session :

“This girl had mentioned in the last post about Grimly’s dentist chair and its various attachments. Recently, Grimly tried out *most* of them on her!”


Also when Grimly and thisgirl had visited Geetwo’s in August , Captive Kink who lives not far from them also visited and took some pictures of her in the new harness and her pony gear :

SEPTEMBER

This girl was struggling with her submission a lot this year, because although she’s done a lot of bdsm and bondage it had sort of drifted a bit , hopefully it will be fixed soon!

“This girl has been having quite a few thoughts lately about whether she really fits the submissive, or indeed, the slave label. Partly because of that she has been slowly finding it harder to orgasm when he calls her slave”

Grimly was also a bit out of sorts and this girl tried to nurse him better!

Captive Kink also visited in September and took lots of pictures in this girl in various straight jackets and armbinders :-

OCTOBER

This girl reflected on her first bdsm experiences :-

“This girl has been thinking recently about her first experiences in BDSM. Probably because just a few weeks ago would have been really eight years since her first experience, well, maybe, dependent on what you count her first experience as being.”

It was also the fifth annual love our lurkers day – thank you all for your amazing comments!

In addition to posting a lot of the pictures Captive Kink had taken in September, this girl also posted a halloween special of Grimly kidnapping Alice in Wonderland :

NOVEMBER

This girl wrote about being in a long distance relationship

“Quite a few people ask about how to survive a long distance relationship. To be honest, it is very difficult and very frustrating. But on the other hand, can have its rewards.”

This girl also had a few very intense sessions with Grimly to try and fix her submission and headspace a bit!

DECEMBER

The snow wreaked havoc with a lot of this girl and Grimly’s kinky plans in December :

First of all, sorry for the delay (and decreased frequency) of posts recently. As you might see from the blog it is snowing here! and may well be for the forseeable future. boo hiss!

to the point it became a slightly pressing issue :

HOPES FOR 2011

This girl and Grimly ARE getting married in 2011 and also going back to Canada to stay with JG Leathers  (& visit the USA) as part of the honeymoon:)

Hopefully, all being well, Grimly will move down here before becoming this girl’s husband and is hoping to set up a new workshop and playroom. So ….watch this space!

HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A FANTASTIC NEW YEAR, HAPPY 2011!:)

The Creature Vs The Chair

When this girl and Grimly went to Wales last week Grimly gave Geetwo his original dentist chair which Sue got to try out in combination with the creature harness.   The chair had been lying under the bed out of use for a while, since Grimly got his current one which is quite a bit more extreme. The one Grimly gifted has all the straps, and electric points but it hasn’t got the full works the one back home does.  Seeing the combination though got this girl thinking about how the chair measures up to the creature.

She is quite relieved she didn’t try it herself given this very worried look on Sue’s face!  Yes this girl would be worried too in that predicament:-

This girl had not heard of JG Leathers or the creature before she met Grimly. In fact the stuff she had come across before meeting Grimly was pretty mainstream. Just you know, light bondage, tie and spank things like that. She didn’t know such nutcases existed out there. People that can take things a bit further. To the next adrenaline rush.

Grimly however had known about JG for about a decade before hand, and had for a long time been inspired by the creature and JG’s other complex ideas. Though back then he never thought he would have a sub who would have experienced it. But this girl has. But she experienced Grimly’s chair first.

This girl was seated in the  original chair, which now belongs to Geetwo & Maxi, when she had her first major experience of electrics i.e. wired up with electrodes connected to the ET312. And also, her first experience of his home-made fuck machine. Was it that experience or the fact that he was so much fun in many other ways that kept her coming back until it was too late to want to do anything else?

The Current Chair has the ability for electrics to be connected into it, and is compatible with vacuum suction, breath play and holding a vibrator in just the right place! A fuck machine can also be mounted, and the chair can be used in combination with gas masks, or Grimly’s brainwashing mask (which has built in leds which give  a flashy light strobe sensation) which works in time with electric shocks and music, or the video mask  in which the recipient can either watch themselves be tortured or watch whatever the else the twisted git wants them to!

Visually, the main difference between the chair and the creature is suspension. The suspension on the creature when in its full glory is amazing. Its like being in a kinky baby bouncer, although that makes it sound relatively friendly – and its not!

Being in the creature feels pretty much like the name applies. You feel as though you become part of something else. Part of a machine, and you feel controlled by the machine, not so much by the man at the controls. It takes over totally, unrelenting. At times, this girl found it a bit of an attack, especially on her tits, the suction being much stronger than what she is used to at home. But, torture is one of her fantasies, and tortured she was!

The idea of it is more or less every part of the body is stimulated and that the stimulation is all controlled centrally. Though, most of its stimulation is based upon what would stimulate a man. This is not in any way a criticism, since it was built by JG for his own enjoyment and creative journey, and it is amazing that he even lets anyone else try it.

The chair however, has been built by Grimly for this girl. JG said last week how lucky this girl is and how jealous people are that she has the man who builds these mad things around her fantasy to custom fit, body and mind.

It does fit her mind. The brainwashing mask element of it particularly, in that this girl’s fantasy is to have her body stimulated and tortured, and her mind twisted into submission. This girl is not so much the natural submissive, but yet it is there lurking behind loads of other mental issues it just needs to be coaxed out. The chair allows that to happen. This girl feels relaxed, and safe in its bondage, until he starts pressing those buttons and using the microphone on the mask to whisper implicit suggestions into her head. Well ok sometimes they are explicit too😉

It fits her body too, having the fuck machine there and having clitoral stimulation helps that. The sheer pleasure of that sort of balancing out whatever pain from the electrics and vacuum. Its that combination that works for this girl, being mentally brainwashed at the same time as being driven towards intense orgasm whilst being reminded that her body is restricted to what he wants to happen to it.

In this girl’s head there are many many positives to each piece of kit. The chair could never beat the creature as such because after all, it was inspired by it, but modified to fit what Grimly had available and what suited his and this girl’s needs. Elements of both could be combined though to make something perhaps even more amazing.

The idea of being suspended by the springs whilst being fucked and buzzed and zapped and pummeled at the same time as being brainwashed via the mask connected to a mission control centre like JG’s would be amazing. This girl knows that is something Grimly wants to have all that overkill controlled in one place, and possibly all by computer and all electronically. So instead of maybe having all those knobs and buttons just have one big computer to just be able to sit and relax whilst supervising his deviousness.

So….

Is it good or bad that they’re friends….

More on Grimly’s chair and inventions here

and

More on JG Leathers here

The creature revisited

** AKA The holiday pictures you never saw **

Whilst in the company of JG Leathers last week this girl got to see the creature again. This time, its rider/victim being the lady behind Alternative Mindsets* It was very interesting to see someone else in not so much her shoes, as her harness, and quite a turn on too!

The version of the creature used was mainly the leather harness, together with breather bottle and breast cups. So it lacked the added elements of the bouncy garage suspension springs and the electrics, but it looked amazing all the same.

It made this girl think whether she wanted another go of the creature after having tried it twice in Canada, and the way she is thinking at the moment she is hoping that she will have the opportunity but maybe with some adaptations that might be possible with a trans-atlantic collaboration. The first time this girl went in the creature it pretty much shell shocked her. Like being in a machine. Taken, and violently. The second time she was in a much more comfortable position and so it was a much more enjoyable ride. Being in the whine cellar at JG HQ was amazing, but the creature retained its presence this side of the pond also encapturing its new victim just as nicely.

The idea for this girl to dress up as a pony mistress was partly because sunday afternoons pony play was rained off but also because the harness alone is part of JG’s horsewoman interpretation as seen in pony girls at the ranch.

However, this girl found it a bit difficult to get in the role. It might have worked better if it had been outdoors or if she hadnt been in the presence of so many higher skilled dominants.

Sometimes getting into a dominant headspace is difficult for this girl. Well, saying that sometimes getting into the right submissive headspace is hard as well!  This girl has often joked with Grimly how she would quite like to dominate him just once (these fantasies she gets normally involve buggering him) but the joke quickly fades when he puts her in her place. Literally and physically.  Grimly has always said that if anyone was to dominate/top him it would need to be someone that he wouldnt be able to second guess. That he wouldnt be able to see what’s coming, and that would have inventions equal to or madder than his. How many people like that are there? (add to that they would need to be female and attractive) This girl knows that she doesnt fit the criteria for being able to shock him.  He would see everything coming a mile off.

However, this girl can’t blame him. She would be the same if she were looking for another dom or considering one for play. For example, she’s quite happy to play with JG or Captive kink but some random at a club with a flogger and a st andrews cross – no way. In a way this girl feels bad that she’s been possibly spoilt and has a bit of snobbery going on but then in any aspect of life you get use to standards you are comfortable with and want the same or better. That also and bdsm is a sensory adventure, like an addiction always looking for the next rush , the next hit and a mediocre scene in a fetish club just would not meet the bill – it would be like taking paracetamol when you’re used to morphine to use a pain killer as opposed to a paingiver for a metaphore.

Since this girl started playing with Grimly she has felt pretty much inadequate as a dom. In a way thats a good thing because it encourages to focus on her role as his submissive, which is her main passion and her main fantasy. Its maybe also because she compares herself to him, she compares her skills to his and just doesnt feel as though she measures up in that regard. Though, even when she tried to pro dom in a place where the other doms were of equivalent skill she didnt feel right either but then there were other reasons why that didn’t feel right.

This girl never wrote about this before (mostly because of not really being fussed with the blog for the first half of this year too much  and forgetting she had unfinished bits of what happened in Canada – and she doesn’t like to really write much about being dominant – since she really ISN’T) but she did have a rider herself in the creature thanks to JG’s hospitality. The rider shall remain anonymous for now unless of course they should choose to unmask… It was very kind of JG to allow it since he is quite picky about who he allows to use the full ensemble and for that this girl is very grateful.

She is not going to pretend that the rigging was her work because it wasn’t. She was merely the lab assistant and controller once the rigging was completed and it was the absolute full works.

The pressure this girl felt to be in control of the creature was unbelievable. This girl is a firm believe in the importance of safety during bdsm and just the amount of things to be aware of was daunting. Well, you can see the control panel in the picture below. ET312 x 2, vacuum, suction, breath control. The lot. Monitoring all of that whilst having the occupant dangling three metres away and making the occasional convulsion or whimper. It’s not just the visuals of that its the noise as well. The session at the weekend just now didn’t have as much of that. It didn’t have the noise of the vacuum pumping or the breath machines…just the (relatively) more tranquil sound of the bubbler bottle strapped to her. The trick to the thing was working out from the moans and the whimpers what was good pain and what was too much, and what was just sheer overkill.

But you know, the whole thing is kind of overkill. That is pretty much the point, and, both this girl when she was inside it, and her victim, knew what to expect….and got it.

It didn’t stop her feeling guilty afterwards. For helping assist with something that was very much wanted and desired. But she did. The creature is unforgiving, it can leave hints of its tortures on the body afterwards, but then, perhaps no more than the amount that might be left from a good caning. This girl felt bad about that though, as bad probably as when she (accidentally) cut someone who was into cutting. In that case the person quite liked it but this girl felt bad because it hadnt been meant.

This is possibly why this girl does not assume a dominant role too often, since she either feels overwhelmed by it and worries whether she will live up to the person’s expectations, or on the other hand, that little sadistic monster somewhere inside might try to escape – and there most definately is one as poor Maxi the other day found out when this girl kept encouraging Grimly to add further torments to her bondage!

But , these things are of course done out of friendship and to share the adventure.

Hopefully these last few paragraphs dont make this girl feel dangerous, it really is the opposite since she has always taken great care to ensure any submissive she plays with gets what they’ve wanted in a safe and controlled manner – its just sometimes that little sadistic monster wants out!

The rest of what this girl has written about her visit to Canada is here