What do you feel are the roots of your Dominance? Do you think it has something to do with childhood, upbringing or parental example? Is it a relationship management tool as in the practice of domestic discipline? Is it a sexual thrill or something else?
I had a ‘relatively’ normal childhood. So I don’t think that is anything to do with it at all. I wasn’t abused or anything dark or damaging. The only thing that I could remotely link to my childhood is the fact that I was an only child and possibly therefore got my own way a lot. But obviously not every only child becomes dom. I really don’t think my upbringing is anything to do with it. My kinks may well be something to do with ‘how I’m wired’ but I don’t think my family has had anything to do with that! I was also bullied at school and regret not standing up for myself then, which I feel I could now, maybe that is something to do with it? Maybe not.
I can relate a lot of early kink thoughts to movies and books, to stories of torture, heroines, alien abductions, scientific experiments, hammer horror, all sorts of things like that. Basically a lot of sources that sparked the imagination and inspired dreams.
Short answer to this question though, yeah it’s a sexual thrill. I do all this stuff because it turns me on. Because it’s fun. Because it’s an adrenaline rush. I don’t know why this turns me on more than ‘normal sex’ but it does. Mostly because it inspires my imagination and mind as well as satisfying my body. That’s it.