So far well this is a better January than usual! The year started off pretty rubbish with being ill but apart from that it’s been a good month so far – no snow so far in this part of the world – the tropics of west Scotland – which is good – and after this weekend a reasonable amount of kink!
Sometimes in the winter months this girl can feel a bit low due probably to lack of sunlight perhaps and sadly *not* as a result of being kept locked 24/7 in a dungeon! Also her work is traditionally busier during the winter months as well. As a result of being locked in an office and not a dungeon and getting up in the dark and going home in the dark it’s easy to sort of get run down a bit.
However given the pretty disappointing festive week this girl and Grimly had they’ve been determined not to let that feeling go into 2013! As a result the weekend just gone was incredibly kinky.
Starting on Thursday night this girl and Grimly managed to get to a munch in Edinburgh, then at the weekend one in Glasgow too 🙂 Adding in to that some play with each other on Friday and also with friends on Saturday – of which…if it works out ok there may eventually be some 3D footage 😉
So coming up over the next few weeks some new stories and pictures that will hopefully give others inspiration, encouragement and motivation too.
Though aside from that, this girl feels a lot as though her mojo that perhaps had gone a little is back. She was sort of starting to get bored with kink a bit. Well that’s probably not the right word, but some of the zing had disappeared a bit. Maybe partly because of the weather, maybe doing the renovations, who knows well just the drive to do it was sort of a little extinguished and also slightly a bit confused trying to be two people at once. It is really actually quite difficult to have an alter ego! Maybe even 3 people in her head if you count the wife, the submissive and the evil bitch LOL. So okay the husband might argue wife and evil bitch are one. Well actually yeah no might about that one.
Seriously though this girl has felt a bit more motivated with kink lately and the stuff at the weekend was great, and actually trying to make a point of writing a bit more here is sort of helping the mindset to keep going.
There’s just a real serious problem with being in a kinky head space more regularly and that is waking up in the middle of the night with weird ideas of either having stuff done to you or doing it to people – or like last night, both. So…some poor lady is going to be on the receiving end of this girl’s latest insomnia driven insanity well perhaps not so poor hopefully she’ll like it, remains to be seen. Will be interesting to wait and find out though.
The thing is ultimately this is the reason why this girl does any kink at all. It turns her on. If it didn’t or it stopped doing so then it would be sort of pointless. It needs to be a turn on for her and for Grimly and for whoever else might be involved otherwise it’s just going through the motions and it’s obvious that it’s not as good as it might otherwise be.
This girl didn’t get into BDSM because she’s some uber submissive. Probably, to regular readers this is damned obvious.! Or because she wants to keep the world safe from her evil sadistic husband. She just wants to enjoy her evil sadistic husband because that’s what excites her. Simple as there’s nothing selfless about it really. Sometimes there are things she does that are selfless but mostly the driving force is making sure its sexy and interesting. That’s not just physical either sometimes bdsm needs to stimulate the mind more so than the body, hence all the elaborate stuff and brainwashing apparatus and things like that and the attempts to go beyond just the tie and spank thing and to encourage imagination and fantasy.
The absolute whole nine yards stems from just really wanting to have fun, to enjoy arousal and endorphin and to have someone special to share that with. Not really all that complex at all. So its been said before here and other places,and a convoluted way for posting this honeymoon picture this girl found on the computer and rather likes.
This was taken during the boat trip back from Alcatraz.
Make what conclusions of that as you will .
Though this girl has perhaps a little further to go before getting a guest room there 😉