Is your need to submit being met? If not, or if your situation changed, do you think that you could continue in your life and still be happy/content if you were never able to express your submission in the way that feels best to you again? What makes submission special to you?
This girl’s needs are being met and have been met for a very long time by her husband and Master, Grimly. As this girl mentioned sometimes the D/s part of the relationship is more hidden than she would like and it needs work in the future to develop more but it has a great deal of potential and it is already special for being just what it is. Though every relationship needs work if it is going to keep working, it’s not rocket science.
It’s hard to know if this girl would be content if things were to change. If something came into her life that was big enough to fill the void that not having a D/s relationship with Grimly would leave then perhaps she would readjust, but it is hard to know without being faced with that reality. For example if she had a bigger career or something like that, perhaps that would fill it, but then really it would always perhaps feel like a piece of the jigsaw was missing.
The reason why she remains in a D/s relationship with Grimly is because its what she wants and it has been for a very many years, she really cannot see that changing. She cannot see being with anyone else or leading a life different to what life is like with him .
The reason why submission is special to this girl is because being submissive to him makes her feel very aroused, very loved, very happy. There is that loving sensual side to it, but then also there is the darker and more humiliating aspects to it as well at times. It’s not always rosy sometimes its rough and ready. Really what makes it most special is that it is fun, it is something she can share with him and no one else.