Do you have submissive desires or fantasies that you have yet to be able to explore? Do some of your desires confuse or frighten you? Do they excite you?
This girl would like to think that she has experienced a good taster of everything she’s wanted from submission and BDSM so far. But, human nature is often to want more. At this stage (as she has mentioned in other recent posts) this girl is not really sure what direction that might take.
She certainly has plenty of fantasies she is yet to explore. Some of those should stay fantasies, others, perhaps will happen, but rather than spoil what might come, just watch this space 🙂 Of course, there may well be other things that at this moment have not crossed her mind that later on may become driving factors behind what happens with the D/s part of the relationship, who’s to know? This is why the future is more exciting really than the past.
Anyone who reads this blog regularly will know this girl is easily confused, and sometimes doesn’t feel submissive. Hopefully as time goes on she’ll get confused less. At least that is the hope.
She doesn’t have any desires or feelings that frighten here though. There is nothing frightening about life with Grimly. Sometimes he might scare her temporarily and take things a little close to the edge but there is nothing that he does or that he has the potential to do to her or make her feel that causes her to have sleeplessness nights or anxiety.
Perhaps if anything were to scare her its the worry that things might diminish and life will get to habitual and routine.
Now that would be scary !