Oh probably like any relationship Grimly and this girl have times when they talk dirty to one another. The word ‘dirty’ doesn’t necessarily cover it – but you know, talk of BDSM,sex,ownership,bondage, ALL that stuff. It would be weird if they did not talk about it!
However, over recent weeks there has perhaps been less talk of it than what is normal. Things have been a little strange since the wedding, being over the high and now at a sort of low just sort of waiting for the impending move and the plans and the chaos all that will cause. Sometimes there are just other things to talk about. Work, family, furniture oh yes and bloody IKEA. All these things get in the way of BDSM when you are still ultimately a normal married couple. Well perhaps not normal, but ish. Sorry if this is getting to be a repetitive tale of woe!
This girl could talk to Grimly about anything though having been at times literally hypnotized by his voice. Thats not to say she’s hypnotized day-to-day like in ASDA or anything, far from it, but that she is always happy to listen to him and talk to him. Six or so phone calls a day is average here and always has been and it’s unusual for this girl and Grimly to sit in silence in each other’s company unless it’s when sat watching the TV and falling asleep in front of it as people do when they are comfortable with each other.
But, this girl is not always comfortable with him. Sometimes she is very uncomfortable with him because he has so designed that due to the restriction of bondage or the infliction of pain! Whilst recently not many words had been spoken of bdsm or slavery or any other topic such as that. So just when this girl was beginning to wonder if she had lost the head space of it a little he dragged her mind back to it reminding her that he was her Master before her husband, and this girl is ashamed to say that reminder was needed and equally ashamed to say it was rather erotically welcomed.
So sometimes having a conversation with harsh punctuation helps. Certainly being bound and gagged whilst weights are dangled of various sensitive areas makes this girl listen to everything Grimly has to say, especially as she lingers waiting for him to say the word that turns the pain temporarily into pleasure and orgasm. What he did to her at the weekend was not technical or electronic or hi-tec just simple, neat pain, enough to ensure she would listen and take notice, and well, she did. Whilst he tortured her he said both things that made her feel bad and guilty and ashamed and that also made her feel good and invigorated.
In part it makes this girl feel slightly shameful that sometimes she needs harsh words and simple pain to realign things to how they should be, but that well is a part of who she is. Sometimes she still wishes to rebel against many of the concepts that are core to her kink/fetish – the ideas of consensual slavery,ownership,masochism,submission and most of all obedience. She wants to protest and fight back and say to him sometimes that it isn’t her that its a mistake that she is strong willed and independant and not desiring any of these things. But that is far from true and her body would betray words to that effect. Being owned, being controlled and yes even being obedient makes her feel aroused and excited, and ultimately quite content and happy primarily because all of those things are at his hands. This girl can never lie to him since whilst she might be able to speak the words her body language would catch her out every time.
This girl cannot say why that despite having perhaps one of the most talented, cunning and enterprising doms she needs to challenge him and bait him into wanting to reconquer her.
Oh well perhaps that’s why 😉
Perhaps it is an unusual game to play and one that will change and develop over time, well it shall be fun to see how it all plays out.