This girl has been warned on more than one occasion to be careful what to wish for! There is of course so much wisdom in that statement, but despite that she often ignores its advice!
This girl cannot complain in that aside from pots of money and a bigger house she has got pretty much everything she wished for this year. The dream wedding (well two of!) and the most superb honeymoon shared with plenty of deviant friends and amazing sights and scenery. However, now reality is beginning to kick in!
Whilst weddings and honeymoons are very real and very exciting at the time they are over way too quick. Work is the reality, to be honest it feels like there was never a break from it! Sometimes this girl envies people whose work is kink related – models and such that can make a career from it. Whilst this girl has done odd bits of modelling here and there she has never pursued it as a career and nor would she want to. This girl likes having a fixed income and knowing that the mortgage will be paid each month, there is too much uncertainty in relying on fetish for a regular income, because people do change their tastes, and gosh, looks go.
It doesn’t stop her being jealous of that kind of lifestyle though! However, this girl likes her security and creature comforts 😉 Change scares her half to death!
Big changes are coming up when Grimly moves here, giving up his job and his home to take a risk of finding something nearby. It’s a scary prospect for him, and this girl feels guilty that her insecurities wouldnt’ have allowed her to do the same. She had moved for a man before and took a risk leaving a job that had more prospects than her current one, and it had fucked everything up, she just isn’t ready for doing that again despite loving Grimly, despite knowing that he would never let her down.
So he’s coming here and that is that. Ultimately it will be better, it will be easier for going places, meeting people, family, everything. Oh apart from anything else its normal right to live with your husband? 😉 It’s just the adjustment of going from living alone to living with him, with leather and tools all over the house and kink. At the moment all that is separate this girl’s house is pretty normal, his is a little pocket of kink, it’s sort of going there is escapism in itself. Will it be the same just sort of having it upstairs?
Really living alone the only benefit is being able to choose what to do with the space and that benefit is not as strong compared to his companionship and his being here. The adjustment is actually a minor inconvenience, it just feels bigger sometimes because at the back of her mind this girl feels guilty that he is giving up so much because he loves her and wants to be here.
Some people say submission is the biggest gift, this girl does not think that is true. Sure whilst he has her submission and the ability to do what he wants to her body and mind what he has given her is worth so much more. Those things aren’t worth half so much as love and going the extra mile to be together, or worth as much as wanting to make each other feel special and happy. Love and happiness come at a cost, that of change, compromise and sharing what’s good and bad. Nobody ever said it was easy.
It will be interesting however to share that journey. Some people seem to think a marriage like this will involve bondage and latex and fetish every day. That is not the case nor would this girl want it to be. There are so many other things she wants to do with her life and not all of those are kink related. She wants her bdsm to always be fresh and exciting something to look forward to here and there ,and not a chore or an annoyance.
Having him here will perhaps make kink more regular, make it harder to get away with things, and will alter her life , but it will be an exciting adventure.
It’s just fucking scary!
This girl is not for a minute doubting whether her marrying him was a good idea. It was the best idea she ever could have had. She is just doubting whether him marrying her was a good idea for him! She is so scared of letting him down after asking him to give up so much.