This girl is not what she would call that ‘active’ on the local scene. There are reasons for that.
It’s limited, at least here in the UK. Most clubs this girl has been to are generally the same – the same type of people, the same type of kit and the same type of play. Sometimes clubs are worth attending for social reasons to perhaps meet up with someone who might be also going but for play they don’t offer the same opportunities as play at home.
There was a time when this girl could see the attractions of being tied up in public and caned or things like that. There was a certain exhibitionistic rush from it, from taking everything that was dished out feeling as though it would be a sort of personal shame not to. But sometimes it got to being that having an audience was a turn off. It’s all very well showing off to some people, but definitely not to men with their hands in their pockets. This girl has probably mentioned before but she’s been thanked in the past at clubs for putting on a ‘good show’. It’s not a show. It’s real. This is what she does, because she enjoys it, not to necessarily look good to other people. Sometimes that’s a welcomed side effect, other times it isn’t. At least when she shows off stuff on the internet then she’s choosing what is shown and sharing just what she wants. She remembers once coming off a piece of equipment and realizing someone she didn’t like had a view right up her ****. Not ideal!
Since this girl met Grimly the play she likes is generally too intimate for a club as well in either act or feeling.
Probably the main thing that puts this girl and Grimly going to that many events is the amount of people who try to act as though they’re all it. Doms who treat women like crap just because they’re women, and generally behaviour that wouldn’t be out-of-place in the playground at a school. It seems to be that give adults a kink and put them in a room together and they’ll behave one of two ways – like adults and have fun, or like children and get drunk and be idiots. A lot of clubs locally have sometimes been the latter. There’s a lot of my ego is bigger than your ego. This girl can’t be bothered with that, she’d rather her actions and her writing express her personality than a load of pissing into the wind.
Probably because this girl and Grimly avoid these things kinky people within 50 miles probably have no idea who they are. There are times when that’s a good thing being under the radar, but then there are other times when Grimly and this girl raise their heads and get a ‘who the fuck are you’ just because they don’t go to every event there is. Its hard sort of wanting fame and admiration to a point and yet also wanting anonymity and to be left to get on with it! 😉
This girl and Grimly have found events they enjoy though. Generally events that are planned on a smaller more sociable scale are more entertaining than those that are based on ‘if you have the money you get in’. This girl definitely misses the old club Nemesis and also the barn parties, however the host of those has a new venue now running it’s just not been possible to get to it yet due to everything else going on with the wedding , but hopefully soon or after the wedding if not.
The scene often seems to be very cliquey in general though, and sort of inaccessible and cold to new people unless they’re young, hot and available. It makes it feel a bit like a meat market. Oh perhaps this girl is turning into an old married woman but she’s rather past all that sort of thing. She’d much rather just meet up with a couple of like-minded friends for coffee or dinner than go to the bother of getting all dolled up to sit in a pub whilst people get spanked in the background.
There are times when she’s curious about it though, you know, to see if it’s changed, to see if her opinion is perhaps too negative, a bit too harsh, and whether there is anyone new on the scene that she might meet and be a great friend, so for that reason she’s always willing to give it another chance. Yet, those reservations are kind of still there.