Today thisgirl’s weblog is 4 years old.
It is strange to think it has managed to last this long. There have been a few times over the last year when this girl has toyed with ending it. Not ending it with Grimly of course, just no longer writing about what she does with him and what he does to her.
The main reason for that is concern that she sometimes shares too much, or conversely sometimes not enough and that people are bored of it. It is also hard when the audience is no longer entirely anonymous (which it was in the beginning) and that there are a least a couple of dozen people who know this girl in person as well as some persona on the internet. Initially, only Grimly knew so it was like she was writing it for him. Now she has to wonder what other people think as well, though for the most part it doesn’t censor what she wants to say. This girl has always been one of those people whose attitude to other people is ‘i’ll try and encourage people to like me but if they don’t, their loss’.
Though there is an element of trying to keep the standard up. The difficulty is sometimes how to top what has happened before? What else can this girl write about that you might possibly be interested in after she has experienced things such as the creature? Though ultimately of course there are always new things to experience, new people to meet.
So, the blog has gotten this far. A lot of blogs don’t. They start off well and then sort of fizzle out a bit, the writers get bored, or their relationships fail. This girl is far from bored with BDSM and close to being married to Grimly,yes for better or worse!
So yeah four candles this year …or fork handles 😉 Here’s one of the funniest Two Ronnies’ sketches :
This clip sort of fits something this girl was thinking about recently. Language. The same words spoken or written in a different manner can totally change the meaning and interpretation.
There have been other blogs and fetlife threads again about writing style and especially about the third person, and how some people think it’s not a correct form of english grammar. This girl has not jumped in to defend her writing in any of those places because she knows that if someone doesn’t like it she is not going to change their minds. In the same way you might struggle to change the mind of someone who hates any particular author’s style. For example, Grimly hates Shakespeare. This girl likes it. She can understand it and has seen a lot of it in the theatre. He would never go to a Shakespearian play, not without being dragged and forced, because it’s not his thing. In the same way this girl appreciates how she writes might not suit some people, but then how she plays probably wouldn’t suit them either.
This girl does get a bit annoyed though by people saying its bad english, especially when most of those people are American!
This girl is a pretty wordie type of person, she always enjoyed english at school and reading, and puts a lot of thought and effort to trying to work her vocabulary to paint the picture she is wanting the reader to envisage from the thoughts going on in her mind from her experiences of BDSM. So if people are still reading it after this amount of time it can’t be that bad!
One of the other criticisms was that some people think writing like this shrieks ‘look at me , look at how submissive I’m being’. Hmm. This girl has never once claimed to be the world’s greatest sub. Far from it. She is still a bit of a brat. But she has bratted on some of the world’s best doms and the proof is there no matter in what manner its documented 😉 She has written quite a few times about why she writes like this. how it helps her think, how it stops her from just thinking of the first thing that comes to mind. It is a tool for expression. But then so is any blog. Furthermore, any blog at all has elements of egocentricity. Sharing personal experience with other people is a sign of being comfortable and proud of what you do and is partly about trying to gain respect for it. It’s not an altruistic mission. It’s a very personal one. It is about saying what you do. How you feel.
This girl is just a character of sorts. Painted for the real person behind to document one aspect of her life. Nothing more than that.