This girl has often wondered what it would be like to have some sort of eye contact restriction or be totally blind-folded or hooded for an extended period to give an enhanced sensory deprivation feeling and to heighten the remaining senses and sensations.
It really goes back to when she spoke to a mistress who had blindfolded her sub for the duration of their first play weekend as Mistress and slave that she has had these thoughts. He spent the whole weekend not knowing what was going to happen next, not knowing whether his Mistress was watching him or not, not knowing what she was wearing (it could have been full fet or pyjamas he would not have known) and not having any visual stimulus at all until the very climax of the weekend came and she chose to reveal herself to him to share a moment of tenderness after an intense two days of titilation, torture and teasing.
This girl spoke to that subby guy as well and asked him what that was like to experience and he’d said it was one of the most sensual things ever because he couldn’t see his owner but was picturing her reactions to things, what she might be wearing, and just imagining her smile whilst he was enduring that physical handicap and bondage along with whatever pain she might want to inflict which did of course feel more intensified.
This girl often wonders what it would be like to experience that with Grimly to be with him and yet not see him – which would be a little torture in itself given the whole long distance thing. But, would it make his voice sound darker and scarier? Would it make every touch more magical? Would it stop her wondering what the next thing he was going to do would feel like if she couldn’t see it? Because she has to admit sometimes her mind does cry wolf if she can see where the play is going and gets unnecessarily freaked by it. Also what would it be like to trust him to guide her to food…to making his coffee…to bed … 😉 Maybe it’s an odd fantasy to have…but just really something this girl is curious about.
The thing is though whilst that might enhance some of the physical sensations it might also subtract one or two things.
Grimly mentioned the other day that he thinks this girl has expressive eyes. To her, they are just wonky…due to not wearing the patch given by the sadistic eye doctor when she was six and not making the bird go in the cage with the weird eye torture machine. But…Grimly says they tell him a lot. But, it is certainly one way of communicating during play. If you can’t speak…sometimes trying to communicate your needs non verbally does require a little body language – which can quite often be restricted to just a look if every other part of the body is restricted – which – it often is for this girl!
It’s probably this girl’s main method of begging for a start. This girl hates/is not good at verbal begging. It just sounds wrong. She’s about as good at begging as she is at talking dirty i.e. not very. But normally when she looks at him pleadingly when being electrocuted and buzzed to orgasm for him to click his fingers he gets the message she is trying to convey even if she can’t get out the words ‘please Maaster i need to cum’. His eyes in turn seem to suggest that he savours that moment….getting to the point…watching her eyes water as she struggles to hold out just a tiny bit longer, yeah because Grimly has expressive eyes too! lol
Sometimes this girl wonders whether some sort of eye contract restriction would be a middle ground on this, not all the time of course, but sometimes to experiment with high protocol. Just to see what it’s like. Or not see of course 😉 Would having a simple restriction like that help this girl feel more in her place, more submissive? Would it feel a little humiliating and yet possibly make her appear humble and graceful to him? Or would it drive him nuts, if she were to only look him in the eye when she was desperate for mercy or for an orgasm at risk of punishment for breaking a rule?
Eye contact is a weird thing isn’t it? It seems sort of wrong to make eye contact with a stranger on the train – it’s like if you accidentally make the contact them 9 times out of 10 both you and the other person ending up looking the other way. This girl has tried sometimes to not look away, to maybe smile instead but generally that just gives her a return look of contempt or a look of ‘are you insane or something’. Yet when you know someone, it shows that you’re listening to them, or that you’re interested, or confirmation that you’re focussed on what’s going on and it’s second nature to do it heavily with a romantic partner, kind of just part of the natural connection that is always there…so maybe that would be hard to remove…even temporarily..since this girl would never want to adopt a protocol of that sort all the time …but it might be interesting to try some of these ideas sometime.
The odd thing is…when this girl looks in his eyes during sex, it’s a really odd feeling which makes her feel owned and controlled and sort of reminds her that her slightly weird and nightmareish fantasy is very real. It makes her feel very possessed, and sometimes, a message that important just needs a simple look to convey.