Where did you get the name you use online or in the scene? What is its meaning?
This girl has had loads of online-id’s over the years. A lot of them have been cheesy descriptive ones…like…one of her earliest bdsm ones was tortureslut4u2use (or something like that) how bad is that! But then, this girl has always been one of those sort of blunt and obvious ‘does what it says on the tin’ type of people.
Her current one (and her blog really) is based on something that started out sort of as a private joke. She used to have a blog elsewhere, but she wanted to write something sort of private in public without anyone apart from her Master knowing it was her. She had joked with him a few days prior about gorean rules and language and he’d said ‘i actually sometimes like the third person thing’. So she tried it, and he knew straight away it was her, and then, she moved her blog and her stories here and it sort of stuck. It became habit to write like this, and, given that her yahoo id and everything was based on who she was before meeting him she eventually changed that too.
Sometimes she gets irritated by it and wonders whether people reading find this style irritating or whether they like it. Though, after two years worth of posts this girl wouldn’t change it on the say so of the grammar police! Besides Grimly wouldn’t let her,and although he doesn’t have editorial control he does have an input in something as fundamental as that. Writing here is sort of part of her submission. Not a direct part, but a bit that communicates back to him about how she’s felt about things, and enforces her own understanding of what’s going on in her head. She is getting better at doing that in person now than she once was of course. Writing like this helps this girl to be reflective, to think about subjective things objectively and vice versa, so to change it now would sort of spoil what’s gone on here so far because after all its sort of like a record of previous thoughts and experiences and all that. This girl is quite happy and proud of what she’s done over the last few years, and she’s quite happy for this name to be associated with that.
Besides….if she went back to a descriptive id now it would be something daft like :-
and that would be kind of ridiculous. So this is sticking.