This girl’s Dom has recently took the time to write her out some rules and guidelines.
He’s done it with the intention of giving the D/s part of the relationship more structure and tried to make it things that he thinks she should be capable of as his submissive and not an impossible list of tasks and responsiblities.
This girl has mixed feelings about the rules!
She knows deep down that he needed to do this, and she appreciates his guidance and instruction and yet she kind of hates it too. In the same sort of way thats its only human to not really like being told what to do too much.
So he discussed the rules fully with her, and he listened to her input. This girl knows he has put a lot of effort into it and based it on what he wants, and what he thinks she wants and needs from what has gone on to date and what this girl has expressed here, and elsewhere.
He deserves for her to take this seriously and to really try it. He really does. Yet she finds it difficult. Ok so if it was easy then it wouldnt be challenging, or rewarding, or maybe really even worth doing. Its mostly about being in the right mindset and then the rest of it should follow kinda naturally.
Thats the problem. At the moment the whole submission thing doesn’t always feel natural. Sometimes it does, just its random sometimes its there sometimes its not. Maybe part of the problem is the distance, its sort of only been easy for this girl to feel all the things she needs to feel to be in the right headspace when she’s with him but harder when she’s away.
Maybe following the dress code and other little things he wants her to do away from him as well as in his presence will help that. It will maybe make her feel less like a tv thats got a faulty on-off switch that sometimes works and sometimes doesnt and thats not totally wired up as it should be.