Here is an index of my posts or back-story starting with the most recent – my posts i think reflect how i have developed and relaxed into my submission
The search engine feature is quite useful if you want to see if i have written about a certain topic or theme…
Special Delivery
For any one currently irritated by the issues with the post in the UK…just think….at least you dont have this being delivered!
Fidget
This girl often fidgets quite a lot if given more than an inch to move. It’s not often of course that Grimly gives her more than an inch to move during play…but sometimes he does!
Subwise #3 Ease of Obedience
Subwise essay – Do you find obedience to be easy for you? Why or why not?
Assaulted by the creature
Assault is probably the easiest way to describe how the body feels whilst in ‘the creature’…..
Setting the scene
One of the issues about being into weird technical mad bondage stuff is how long it takes to set up. Though, saying that, sometimes the preparation is part of the fun. It certainly was when JG & Grimly were assembling this girl into “the creature”!
Before the Creature
4000 miles is a long way to go. For anything or anyone. But, then it sort of depends on whats at the end of the journey and how badly you want it as to whether the miles are worth it all. At the end of this girl’s recent journey….was this….this creature….
Happy thanksgiving Canada!
A Canadian Affair
So, the holiday is over, the jet lag has subsided and now its time to start trying to explain what has been happening over the last few weeks- quite a lot! and its safe to say its been easily the kinkiest but still most amazing holiday this girl has ever had! Oh and she got engaged!
Paying for it
A recent comment :-
“You mentioned several times your past experience as a Pro-Submissive, and I am very curious about this. I never met one, and would be very interested to read your take on it, should you agree to make a post on it the future How was it ? How was it planned and executed ? What kind of supervision was here to protect you ? How did you manage to enter the “mindspace” with a stranger ? Memorable encounters, both good and bad ? Lots of questions, but I know your writing talent “
Deconditioning after orgasm control
A thread from fetlife : “What concerns me is that I don’t hear anyone talking about a plan for de-conditioning if the relationship ends. Having recently ended a 6 year relationship I thought was going to last till old age, I don’t quite believe in happily ever after. How does a girl learn to orgasm on her own without the key phrases or permission if the relationship ends? Maybe it would be good for the dom to have an exit strategy for the ending transition? I don’t need to know how to do it, but I’d like to know my dom knows how to do it, just in case.”
Subwise 2 – Advice you swear by
What is some advice that was given to you that really helped you explore your submission that you swear by now? Why has it helped you?
OR
What advice would you give a novice that you wish someone would have given to you? What is the back story behind why you needed that advice?
Here is this girl’s answer….
Creating a Monster
The pictures in this post are from a recent session at Grimly’s. Just recently when she looked back at these images, this girl thought how much she looked like some weird sort of lab experiment or even Frankensein’s Monster awakened by electro-stimulus from the lightening on a dark thunderous night…
Seven Year itch
Partly a repost of an early blog about mascohism
Q. You have an itch, an irritation, what do you do??
A1. Leave it to irrate the fuck out of you? This girl don’t think so!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friendship
There was a discussion on fetlife recently about whether its right/appropriate/normal for your Dom/me to also be your friend. The comment this girl related to most was this response :-
Our relationship has so many layers I sincerely doubt that I could “label” them all. The primary layers however are fairly simple. We are best friends. We are the loves of each others lives. And we are Master and slave. None of these things are mutually exclusive nor do they lessen or detract from each other. In fact they all go together quite nicely. As others have said, I cannot imagine being owned by someone who was not also my friend. As for not being his equal, I guess I don’t understand why anyone would want to own someone they considered inferior to themselves. I personally will simply be grateful that the man I love, am in love with, who is my best friend and whom I plan to spend the rest of my life with is also my Master.
Ditto..
Patrick Swayze has sadly died after losing his battle with cancer.
Oh baby baby!
Do you ever go through phases where it feels like your workplace is never without at least one pregnancy? The last year has been like that for this girl. Some people even alledge there is a desk that if you sit there you’ll be next. Sort of like a bouquet idea but a computer terminal. In her workplace pregnancy is a funny thing, and then the whole process of bringing the baby in after like some sort of trophy. This whole thing doesn’t help when this girl has PMT!
Bedtime stories
This girl has been thinking quite a bit about reading this week – and about reading erotica particularly since she watched two films that featured reading as a theme (by coincide as they were sent randomly from her dvd rental list) and because of the radio clip there about Story of O……
How very British
Found on IC – a link to a radio programme about Story of O, an Interview with Pauline Reague
Playing to his tune
This girl has been a masochist for quite some time now. Even before really she knew what BDSM was she liked to inflict little bits of pain on herself and occasionally others because quite often it made a bad day feel better and was sensual as well. Nothing really all that major. Of course, she didnt’ really understand it till she knew more about BDSM and about how involved it could be. But one thing is for sure, it’s better for a masochist to have a sadist – self infliction is no fun once you can realise what someone else can do to you..
Giving it some welly
This girl spent most of yesterday morning shopping for wellington boots for her Dad to wear to go to the Highland Games, which is expected to be really wet and muddy and horrible. Yep, this is Scotland! Shopping for wellies, as rubber goes, is totally NOT fun…..
Submissive Guide :Subwise1
Here are the other essays from other people
State of frustration
Something to illustrate this girl’s state of mind at the moment…
Subwise 1. personal submission
Define your personal submission. Tell us what submission means to you and how your perfect submissive life would be like if there were no obstacles in the way.
Here’s this girl’s answer……it may be a bit waffly!
Here’s looking at you kid
This girl has often wondered what it would be like to have some sort of eye contact restriction or be totally blind-folded or hooded for an extended period to give an enhanced sensory deprivation feeling and to heighten the remaining senses and sensations…
The toy that changed things
This girl was sent a nice email by the chap that runs Violetwand.com asking her to take a look at his site. It’s very good and informative about violet wands, and it got this girl thinking about her own experience of wands and reminded her that it was probably the toy that changed bdsm for her a bit in that it made her realise bdsm could be more hi-tech, more sensual, and less about the tie and spank sort of play.
Sex Doll
‘BDSM doesn’t have to be about sex’. This girl has said that before- and it’s true – it doesn’t. Not all the time. Sometimes other sensations can be just amazing. But sex itself can be pretty amazing when you feel exceptionally kinky and controlled
Blueprints for Deviousness
This girl has made no secret of the fact that one of the main things that attracted to Grimly in the first place has always been his ability to design things himself. To see an idea, and put his own twist upon it. To make it work. To make it work for HER especially. He literally puts blood, sweat and tears into what he makes in some cases. And love….
His Steely Determination
Grimly has wanted to get this girl a steel chastity belt for a long time. He has threatened it and threatened it, and finally it is here. This has perhaps been expedited slightly by the fact of some friends asking him to design something special and different for them and Grimly requiring a victim for the prototype. Oh yes, with friends like that…who needs…..
Thanks a million
Just a quick note to say this blog has now (officially – since WordPress lost about a year of stats) reached a million views.
Penetration
This girl was not one of those people that rushed into losing their virginity either at the age of consent (or before in so many people that she knew then). Why was there any need to rush into that? Yep. This girl was one of those people that tried to wait till it was right…..
Making it to that point
It feels quite often in how Grimly and this girl ‘do’ BDSM that there is always a point to it. That point, that moment where it just feels like the best sensation ever.
Of human bondage
This girl has read a lot of things recently that suggest quite a few people are happy to indulge in D/s and or BDSM without it being a loving relationship. Without being in love with their Dom or sub. This girl wouldn’t be happy in that situation.
Money Matters
Written by Grimly
In a reply to the blog “Having Nun of it” Codom suggested that we set up a “chip in account” to fund the purchase of kit…..
Crying
This girl read this thread on fetlife recently –
‘Should a slave be allowed to cry during a beating? i recently just go repremanded because i sheded tears during a beating it wasnt a punishment type beating it was one of those just because beatings. i know a lot of Doms and Masters say that tears are a form of release but im still confused should i shed tears or wait till the session is over? ‘
This girl’s expanded thoughts are as follows.
Having nun of it
You remember how this girl said Steffy would get revenge….well…there’s getting revenge and then there’s doing things that would shock the even the Vatican Though what Grimly did to the Nun AFTERWARDS was even more depraved! Perhaps its wrong to post pictures of kink with religious connotations on a Sunday…but so what. If you’re catholic look away now. Or…take notes
Duty of care
Now if you read here regularly, you may recall this girl mentioning one of Grimly’s alterego’s Dr Feendish. A little more sadistic, a little less personal and a lot more frightening, Dr Feendish is a bit of a role play character that came to life when no one was looking, or at least he feels real to this girl when he’s doing his various guinea pig tests on her. But, have you met the nurse? She can be just as horrible. As a squealing rubber doll found out! Poor STEFFY!
What it’s all about
This girl get’s this thing a lot. Of – ‘Wow…i wish you/someone would do that to me’. But would they really want what this girl has? Really? If they knew the warts and all?
Playing with dolls
This girl and Grimly recently entertained STEFFY, the canadian rubber doll. If you are active on rubberpal then STEFFY doesn’t need much of an introduction. Though if not, STEFFY is a rubberist who concentrates her play on achieving the look of the rubber doll – feminine, kinky, and extremely shiny!
Three
This blog is three. Well, as of yesterday, though, given this girl was distracted by a charming man in leather somehow she didn’t seem to have the time to write!
Slave for a day
This girl’s work have a charity day soon. Apparently one of the ideas to raise money is that one of the departments are going to offer themselves to be sold as slaves for the day. Of course, that’s not going to involve any element of human bondage. Some of the male members of staff might think of the imagery above, or of getting free blow jobs. But of course it’s not going to be like that. It’s going to involve things like fetching the coffee and doing other mundane chores…now wait….part of that sounds a bit familiar lol.
‘What i did on my holidays’
A reference to a book written by the character Twoflower in Pratchett’s Discworld Series – it tells his stories of being the disc’s first tourist and his tales of experiencing wild adventures including dragons, wizards and falling off the planet.This girl’s holidays haven’t been quite as elaborate as that, but they’ve been imaginative all the same!
Pony day and the barnyard club
This girl and Grimly went to two events at the weekend – both on a pony and pet play theme – both very different but equally amazing!
Caught between a rock and a hard place
So,this girl and Grimly have been trying a little experiment. For just over the last three weeks this girl has been locking herself into the chastity belt every night at 10.30 on the dot.
Rules & Rituals
“Ritual is important. It is fulfilling and meaningful. It is beautiful. It is symbolic, mnemonic, and instructive. It establishes protocols. It expresses, defines, and clarifies conditions. It is essential to, and ingredient within, civilization. Similarly, do not overlook the significance and value of symbolism.” Vagabonds of Gor, John Norman
Reaping what you sow
This girl reckons you get out of this whole BDSM malarkey what you put in. The more imagination, the more time, the more effect and the more patience…the better the end result. On the flip side, if you put in a lot of brattiness and disruption…well there’s going to be consequences to that. Which, once or twice this girl has learnt the hard way!
Kissing Girls
Recently this girl did some modelling work for her friends at Northern Spanking.
It was the first time in around three or four years this girl had done it, so, she was a bit nervous about it but it certainly became very fun and very interesting, very quickly. Mainly because a lot of the shoots involved working with a very pretty girl with a very rosie bottom and rosie lips It reminded this girl that she is DEFINATELY bi-sexual lol.
Sexy
this girl was given the sexy blogger award!
The wild wild west of Wales
This girl and Grimly went on holiday to the south west of Wales recently (a round trip of around 1000 miles) and it wasn’t just any holiday – a rather kinky holiday! Was it worth the drive? Well…see what you think…. here’s the story and some pictures….
Destiny & Chance
This girl is an avid reader of Destiny and Chance. They are one of her favourite couples to read about along with Padme & Anakin from Journey to the Darkside and Dev & Jos from Devasting yet Inconsequential. They are real people with real stories – sometimes to do with BDSM, sometimes not, somethings just you know, general relationship stuff.
Risk assessments
Some people think health and safety is boring or something that causes inconvenience or irritation. It can be. In any sort of work context, it’s often quoted as a reason for *not* doing something that might be of benefit but could be costly or a reason for spoiling fun like not letting kids play conkers because one might get injured – stuff like that. Sure, here in the uk we live in a f***ing nanny state! But, in a BDSM context health and safety is essential, even if it’s not perhaps overtly evident.
Encasement
Being completely encased is something this girl finds completely terrifying, but at the same time a very erotic experience. In the picture above she is wearing a catsuit, and then put in a latex sleepsack, with the air sucked out of it so it is wrapped tightly round her and her breathing controlled via a gas mask and oxygen cylinder. On top of that she is also totally strapped down so in no danger of going anywhere!
Grimly’s doll
From a thread on fetlife :-
I’ve always thought a true Rubber Doll, in my book, was essentially a fully rubber coated submissive, with no sight or sound, controlled by electronics in some way. On the outside they might be dressed as a doll, with a false face, a wig or clothing, but underneath they are coated in rubber, plugged and wired in ways to “activate” the doll for action.
Where’s my head at?
A lot of people ask that question of – how do you switch from being sort of ‘normal’ with each other to being well…this girl and Grimly. How is it possible to make the transition?
Grimly’s thoughts on predicament bondage
A question for Grimly from this girl’s mail box :-
I was wondering if you’ve ever employed predicament bondage involving electro-play options for this girl – ie presenting a choice between muscle-strain and electro stimulation? Or between two types of electro?
An answer from Grimly
A question from KC to Grimly :-
Grimly, My woman is a wimp…she accepts so much and then pleads with her eyes/body language etc for an orgasm…and the wimp who is married to her can’t resist those pleading eyes or pleading Mmmmphs and fails miserably by satisfying her/himself!! How do you cope when This Girl pleads for penetrative release?
Super-man
This girl surely cant be the only one that finds Clark Kent more appealing than Superman. Sure you know, being able to see through things and fly and all that is pretty cool…but…it’s not really skills that help a normal relationship – where intelligence, compassion, and being able to put your pants and trousers on in the right order sort of are ….
Q&A Month twist – ask Grimly
you are now invited to ask Grimly any questions that you have for the rest of the month, and he’ll do his best to answer accordingly! In case you dont know, he is this girl’s Master, partner, and all round creative inventive demented genius
Reaction
Housebound asked :-When you are “screaming and begging for mercy” Do you really mean it at that very moment?
If so, when do you come back round to thinking – That was fun, when can we do it again?
How would you react if Grimly actually took notice and acted on your pleas for mercy, instead of just carrying on having his wicked way with you ??
How long?
Cliff asked – ‘thisgirl how long have you gone being fucked by the machine?
What is the most orgasms ?
O no!
Two o words – orgasms and obedience. It seems lately they sort of have gone hand in hand a bit. The whole orgasm thing has been a bit broken, but the obedience thing has been VERY broken! Note – this is a very honest blog and just really thoughts this girl is having…
Memory
Tim asked : “Well I’d like to know a few sessions that to you were most memorable, and maybe why they were(and if you would want to experience them again.)”
Asking the impossible
A question from KC….“What if he asked you to do something you really REALLY didn’t want to do/try? Would you feel you have let him down or would you feel disappointed he actually made the request?”
Q&A
March is question and answer month. Does anyone have any questions for this girl?
Friend’s Award
I’d like to say thank you to Luna from The Submissive Guide & also Padme from Journey to the Darkside for gifting me with a ‘Friends’ Award. It is a great honor to be recognized like this and really touching I only hope that I can become friends with more great bloggers like you!
Chastity isn’t just about not having sex
The chastity debate has caused a bit of a headache recently. Grimly is determined that this girl will wear one…and has made an investment in one in the last few days! This girl..well…is less than excited about her beloved Master’s generosity! So…who is going to win this one? He is of course!
‘I wouldn’t harm a hair on your head’
So he says! Yep. This girl knows Grimly would never harm her really. She knows that. Hurt her? Yes, of course, but that’s different. It’s what she wants. It’s what she desires, and what he does too. But, he wouldn’t do anything to cause her any mental or psychological distress or suffering. Well, unless you count the occasional mind fuck – which is another thing entirely! Like this…
Ssssssssh!
Gags. One thing this girl really does NOT like. They are irritating, the dribble is humiliating, they stop her from being able to voice her reactions…and yet…they still have their uses, and ok, yes, can be rather erotic! Oh alright – they’re probably just another of those things she loves to hate
‘Count Yourself Lucky!’
This girl remembers a conversation she had once with her ex dom about scat. This girl had said she would not do it, and his response was that she was ‘lucky’ she wouldn’t have to because it was one of his limits too. She didn’t like that comment. Why should she feel lucky that she’s not being asked to do something repulsive? ……
Behind Closed Doors
A recent comment : -My wife is no longer interested in the internet and doesn’t play or want to meet anyone from it at all…she just wants US to enjoy her bondage these days (I cheat and post a few photo’s of her because I am a proud Dom! ) …..
Hunger
This girl can remember the first time she told Grimly she loved him. Or at least, what she said was something along the lines of ‘I can’t believe i’ve found the man of my dreams…and it’s YOU’ and then she burst out crying. Because, she was just overcome with love, fear, anxiety, happiness…all sorts of emotions. Falling in love is a scary thing, especially, when you are admitting to being in love with someone a little, shall we say, unconventional? …..
And now for something with a little bite
This invention stirred a great deal of controversy all over the world. The main concern is whether the Rapex was a medieval device built on a hate of men or it can be considered an easy-to use devise that could help South African women protect themselves against rape….
A life less ordinary
This girl doesn’t write this blog for any financial gain, or for fame. Although, like any blogger – she can be a stat addict.Its only human to sometimes want to crave attention. It’s a diary really,with a bit of exhibitionism thrown in, and possibly sometimes people forget that. What you see is what you get. End of. This has all probably been said before, but, maybe sometimes this needs to be reiterated. If anyone thinks this is aimed at them. It probably is! (but you’re not alone )….
Dealing with the Staff
So, you might remember this girl mentioned that Grimly had a very special way of dealing with his domestic maid, when not requiring her to complete more mundane duties. If you read here regularly you probably know just what this girl was implying by that, given that one of her regular duties is being his bondage toy and guinea pig for new inventions!….
Service with a smile
This girl is NOT really a service submissive. She’s not keen on housework, or having to do tasks to exact specifications with severe penalties for failure. It’s not what she signed up for. Yet, there do seem to be a lot of D/s relationships that encorporate set rules and regulations – about things being just so. This isn’t one of those. But then, Grimly isn’t really a stereotypical Dom either…….
Her Master’s voice
There was a thread on fetlife a few days ago about accents and voices during play, or specifically during interrogation scenes, and about what accents are more in keeping with the role and giving the right ambience and effect…and this was this girl’s answer……my Dom is Scottish and I love his voice, I wouldn’t love it so much if he tried to put on a fake accent…if i was doing a session with someone who was from another european country sure it would be fun seeing how that was…but fake accents…nah.I love his natural voice…especially when its through the earphones whilst he’s torturing every other part of my body ……
Age it’s just a number
Its Grimly’s birthday today – happy birthday!
This girl isn’t going to tell you how old he is. If you know this girl and Grimly well enough, then you’ll know, but if you don’t then, well its none of your damned business! :p …….
Being ‘done’
When this girl was going through a bit of experimentation with topping, she was once approached in a fet club by someone who made the following remark, after having seen her play with her fem sub at the time-
‘What you did looked hot, do you do guys too?’
And that always felt a bit offensive, because, it makes play sound a bit like a transaction or processing a person. And its really not like that. So she said….no…..
‘Punish me’ said the masochist
This girl wrote this a while ago :-
The concept of punishment doesnt really work so much for this girl. Its sort of difficult to punish a submissive who is also a masochist with pain when they enjoy that too! It really hurt at the time, it was painful, this girl really wanted it to stop – yet, a keen eye will show she was most definately turned on…
A review of 2008
Well as this year goes out here is the review of this girl’s year of pervertery, with a bit about each month and a quote from the first blog of each month also! Feel free to browse the archives and the photo galleries for more info if you want to!
Why?
One of those questions on fetlife recently, that may probably lead to some ridculously shmaltzy answers – why choose THIS. Why choose being a slave over being in a relationship that has both parties on the same level?
Play with me
Sometimes its fun to play with Grimly just without it being BDSM. Like here. Acting very much like kids lol….
Believing in Santa
This girl stopped believing in Santa a long time ago. One man working so many miracles, delivering all the toys meeting the expectations of thousands of people….its just not possible. Logic says it’s a ridiculous thing to believe. Though you know its nice…having someone that embodies hope, happiness and the spirit of giving. So today, this girl has been pretty much in Santa’s shoes – well running shoes anyway!
Speculi
This girl got one of those letters. Our records show you are now due to have a smear. Please call and make an appointment. (That means soon…and not when your birth control runs out – they dont say that part – but they might as well!)
A bit more on headspace
A recent comment from Shawna : Is there ever a point in something like this, where you realize you’re stuck and just not going anywhere? Is it when the final lock clicks, or is it when Grimly first starts? Just curious as to the headspace there.
Dating a Dominant
This girl often wonders whether she will feel the same way about Grimly when she lives with him as she does now, because, at the moment, she still pretty much gets first date jitters when she knows she’s going to see him and still butterflies in the stomach. Will it always be like that?
Single-Gloved
So..some pictures based on the cartoon from the last post….with a few Grimly modifications! The cartoon was pinched from Singleglove’s rubberpal profile, Trinity Pup’s Dom. The hood is not the same type and Grimly didn’t want her to kneel because he wanted to have the fun of making her stand straight. Why do things the easy way??
Coming Soon!
A real-life interpretation of this little bondage cartoon. Stay tuned!
Sharing this insanity
This girl sometimes wonders about what is right to share. Whether its possible to write about too much here, whether by going on about it so much it loses some of magic by recording it for all to hear about, and also whether indeed she wants to share Grimly with the world at all!
‘I’ll always feel this way about you’
Its quite rare for this girl to talk directly about sex all that much. And this isn’t going to be directly about it either, well not in the way some people might want to read it, but who knows……..
Sometimes a girl just needs to put her feet up
So, here you go – the answer to the question raised in the last post…..the most sensible thing to do whilst dressed in latex in shoes you can barely walk in whilst cooking the dinner is of course…to relax and put your feet up. Well. Yeah. Kind of ………
Cooking the Sunday Roast
Any guesses as to what might have happened whilst cooking the Sunday dinner?
Falling for an illusion
This girl read and contributed to a thread on fetlife a few days ago entitled ‘are tools of the trade important’. The thread asked : “When looking for a potential Dom/Master/Sadist, how important is it that he have tools/toys like a St. Andrews cross, or a spanking bench, or stocks, or some suspension device? And, how important is having a play space at home (dungeon), or is club space adequate?”
Love Our Lurkers 3
Bonnie has been doing Love our Lurkers for three years now – this girl has joined in before so thought why not again! …..
Remembrance Sunday
This girl has always paid her respects on Poppy Day. Its one of those things that she was just always brought up to respect.Many countries have a special day to remember those that fell in their wars; America has Veterans Day, while France has Armistice Day. The British commemorate those who fought, and are still fighting, in wars for their country on Remembrance Day – November 11 the date the ceasefire of WW1 was agreed. This year is the 90th anniversary, with Remembrance Sunday being held as the nearest Sunday to that date – today.
Talk dirty to me
This girl has always found it difficult to perform under pressure. Like you know, giving presentations, speeches, even going back to simple stuff like doing talks about the family pet at school. God, she still has nightmares about that sometimes! She hates it when people ask things like ‘what are you thinking’, ‘tell me about you’ and also stuff that requires very specific thoughts like being asked to talk dirty. The mind suddenly goes blank and the only thoughts that do come out sound soooo wrong or just plain dull.
Make the right choice on election day
This girl is not an American and therefore is not really very caught up with the election fever currently sweeping the US. But today just got her thinking about the choices she made the last time there was an election here in the UK….
Happy Halloween
A poem based on Macbeth Act 4 Sc.1 – pervertified in honour of halloween and a kinky lady
Bondage overkill. Oh yes!
Bondage. Being tied up and restrained for pleasure. Or for pain. It can be really very simple, or very complicated. Or in Grimly’s case….overkill… – illustrated
Love-hate
This post could be to do with a lot of things. D/s, masochism, chastity, just being with someone. Maybe all of them! Just thoughts really.
‘Gone fishing’- illustrated
This girl has mentioned somewhere before about Grimly’s split personality. It is sometimes easier to think of his two personas of boyfriend and Master as seperate people who are secretly one in the same – a bit like Clark Kent and Superman…well he does wear glasses but he doesn’t wear the pants on the outside!
And the award for stupidity goes to…
A Darwin award for a Porsche driver
Anally hooked
about the new anal hook – illustrated
Electro-torture
thoughts on torture using electrics, and sadism -illustrated
Dealing with defiance
thoughts on still being a brat and how he deals with it – illustrated
Tolerance
thoughts about changes in physical tolerance
Exercise can be torture
Found – an exercise bike with built in fuck machine
Evacuation
thoughts following the arrival of a new gas mask
Re-breathing
More thoughts on breath play – illustrated
Fully equipped dungeon for sale!
Details of a fully equipped dungeon for sale ! Not ours!
Swinging
thoughts on swinging – illustrated
Six years ….
This girl has now been dabbling in BDSM six years – illustrated with gas mask picture
Exhibition and exposure
Thoughts on being an exhibitionist and how that can sometimes be dangerous for play in public
The Master Puppetteer
About Grimly pulling this girl’s strings – illustrated
Appreciation of the little things
Thoughts about the little things that mean a lot
TMI
Is it possible to have too much information on your partner? Thoughts…with reference to interrogation play
A love for leather
thoughts on this girl’s preference for leather over rope – illustrated
The Quiet Man
About the film the Quiet Man and associated thoughts
Learning BDSM
Things you can’t learn from a book – thoughts about learning about BDSM
It needn’t be a pain in the bum . . .
More on enemas and the inflatable enema plug – illustrated
When a masochist gets cold feet
Sometimes its not easy to be a masochist!!!
Words
thoughts on grammar, thoughts on usage of words and things
Far from a one trick pony
A bit about blogging, and about this girl – and about the wooden pony torture device – illustrated
Cravings for chastity
more thoughts on chastity
Hooded headtrips
More on hoods and subspace – illustrated
Bloodsports
thoughts on cutting, playing whilst menstruation and other stuff to do with blood.
Hormones
about PMS and female hormones – comes with a health warning!
Fantasy Life??
Thoughts on fantasies compared with reality and stuff
Values
About traditional values and that you CAN have them in a D/s relationship
No bottling out
thoughts on trust particularly when it comes to edge play and bdsm – illustrated
The most important thing is pleasing Master’s cock
Not! Tongue in cheek thoughts about submission centered on cock worship and how this relationship differs
Concerning the collar
Thoughts about wearing the eternity collar, concerns about people noticing, thoughts about how it feels and stuff
When girls don’t put out
a silly funny email this girl got at work
‘Girl, you’re doomed’
thoughts on Grimly’s training methods – illustrated
Raising the bar
more thoughts on home made equipment, and will Grimly ever run out of ideas? – illustrated
Step back in time
Thoughts on various things following a kylie concert!
Pulsating
More on electricity – illustrated
Getting into Grimly’s trousers
thoughts on fetish wear, especially for men, especially for him
Self imaging
A bit about body image and confidence – illustrated
Sensory Overload
about sensory overload and a load of other stuff to do with subspace and masochism
Russell Square
Thoughts on the 3 year anniversary of London 7/7
Daddy’s little girl
About age play and the daddy-daughter relationship
Gagging order
thoughts on the use of gags – illustrated
Phobias and fetishes
About fears and fantasies and stuff – illustrated
Partnership
Why its important for a D/s relationship at times to be an equal loving one
The chronicles of a masochist
Thoughts on why its easier to write about pain and play than submission
Diversion tactics
how attention can get diverted during play- illustrated
The Toymaker
thoughts on home made bdsm toys
Maid into what he wants
A little story about being dressed up and electrocuted – ilustrated
About electroplay and a story of a recent session – illustrated
Literary efforts
How NOT to write an email to this girl!
Tension
Mental and sexual tension – illustrated
Presenting exhibit A
About the subbie stand – illustrated
Just a figment of the imagination
Thoughts on imagination and reality bit of a ramble
Drinking gag
pictures and description of the drinking gag – illustrated
Ripped open and laid bare
A bit about blogging and sharing BDSM thoughts
Imprisoned in Latex
about the vac bed – illustrated
One year on
A year of being collared
The third degree
About involving other people/playing with others
Erotic humiliation
a little about humiliation, bondage and enemas – illustrated/
In captivity
about the new cage – illustrated
Hooked!
facial bondage – illustrated
Mind modification
about mind games of hypnosis and brainwashing
Loving one
thoughts on what would have been my gran’s 90th about love
Pornographic
thoughts on porn – what this girl does is not porn it’s real…
Writing her name
about why this girl is called this girl!
Landing behind enemy lines
A picture of the new green latex catsuit and some thoughts on interrogation & role play – illustrated
Memorandum to hell
Grimly could work there could he not??
Balancing Act
A bit about the wooden pony and balancing kink – illustrated
Devious restraint
torture by restraint – illustrated
The ‘used’ fantasy
A bit about the fantasy (or not) of being used
Endurance
Thoughts on endurance – illustrated by the tower of pain
Neverwhere and imbetween
thoughts following reading neverwhere, and about sort of parallel universes
Hypnosis & control of the mind
A little on hypnosis and implanting evil trigger words and brainwashing – illustrated
Stick and carrot treatment
a couple of thoughts on incentives
Honk if you like kink pictures
About protests against the proposed criminal justice bill on extreme pornography
Treatment and therapy
a little about medical play and psychology and pictures of the ‘evil nurse’ – illustrated
Dungeon desires
a little about medieval torture fantasies – illustrated
Love hurts
about bdsm and masochism and how that works within the context of a loving relationship
50,000 volts of self defence
women carrying electrical devices as security in the USA
Breath play
More thoughts on regulated breath play and poppers
The Slave Auction
thoughts on the auction fantasy v the reality
St George’s Day
a St George’s day post
Mr gobble-gobble
a bird in the hand is worth two in the bush 
Just a few of the buttons he pushes
about grimly’s control centre – illustrated
The robotics of sex
thoughts on sex with robots and fuck machines – illustrated
Craving torment?
About craving torment and psychological play together with the physical and about the torment/chastity belt – illustrated
Bark like a dog – a big dog
thoughts about mindless submissives
A bondage raggy doll
Grimly’s bondage doll- illustrated
Recipe for instant submission?
rambling thoughts on submission and slavery
Latex straight jacket
about the new latex straight jacket – illustrated
Not suffering fools
April fools day post
A different person
Just some thoughts mostly to do with confidence
Moulin Rouge
about our visit to Moulin rouge – illustrated
Paris pictures
some more of our pictures and one of Grimly – illustrated
Exhibitionists
about a visit to the Louvre – illustrated
I love you Grimly Feendish
Grimly and this girl are back from Paris – latex at the Eiffel tower – illustrated
The revenge of the fuck machine
About the new fuck machine attachment for the dentist chair shown with nipple electrodes and video mask – illustrated
The thoughts behind saying ‘yes Master’
some thoughts on titles and obedience and conditioning
Compulsory viewing
Video mask and torture session – illustrated!
Captivating viewing
A story of being ‘monitored’ by playroom CCTV
This girl in chains
Steel bondage restraints and chains – illustrated
Networking and popularity
thoughts on social networks and popularity
A bondage doll encased in leather
dressed in leather from head to toe – illustrated
Sexual preferences and orientation
A bit about bi-sexuality,playing with others and stuff like that
Blind date
Finding a dominant or submissive online
Bra of torture??
Grimly’s deviously designed electro vac bra of torture – illustrated
Corsetry and lingerie
thoughts on corsets and vintage lingerie
Movie meme
Guess the movie line…there is a bit of a Grimly theme!
Flexibility
A bit on being adaptable to the requirements of your dom and their training and development methods – illustrated
Like my rack??
Thoughts and pictures of the rack
Safewords and taking more
thoughts on safewords
A review of the Samurai
A review of the Samurai made by P.E.S
Grimly’s Annual review
Grimly’s Annual review
Slave collar
this girl’s new steel slave collar – illustrated
The torment belt
A chastity belt with a difference – illustrated
Falling in love
Falling in love with a sadist -valentines day post
Confidence and life improvement
about confidence,control and D/s improving quality of life – illustrated
Language restrictions and Lent
thoughts on language and giving up swearing for lent
The truth about princesses
Being treated like a princess and a slave – illustrated
Dress code
thoughts on dress code in clubs and day to day -illustrated
Building blocks for BDSM
thoughts following Lego’s 50th anniversary and how toys and childhood games might relate to our fantasies
A public service announcement
This girl and grimly are NOT a public service basically. Or a pay site. The blog and our pictures are about our BDSM……
Buying a B.o.B
This girl’s tale of vibrator shopping
Authority ,respect and protocol
a little about respecting people, and about this girls thoughts on protocols
Long distance Orgasms
about Grimly’s power to control this girl’s orgasms over the miles
National fetish day
thoughts about the meaning and signifance of national fetish day 21st Jan 08
No i dont feel like dancing!
A story and pictures of this girl in ballet boots – illustrated
The scavengers slave
Images and article about our version of the torture device ‘the scavengers daughter’ – illustrated
Coming home from wonderland
About the journey home – illustrated
His secretary
our version of images from the Secretary movie – illustrated
Inspirations
a bit about being inspired by inventions and by people
Intensive care
A bit about breath play combined with bondage – illustrated
Packing things away
about subbies being packed in boxes!
Setting the scene for Annus ligatio
about the first play of the year – involving straight jacket & electro play – illustrated
A review of 2007
A review of 2007
Hating housework
Hating housework – and how to make it fun – illustrated
Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas!
How the Grim stole Christmas
a BDSM/fetish version of how the Grinch stole Christmas
Feeling festive
getting into the Christmas spirit
Something borrowed something blue
about wearing a borrowed Straight jacket come arm-binder at BBB
Trials and tribulations of a reindeer girl
this girl’s experiences of being a human reindeer
This girl can be domestic
some festive baking – illustrated
This will get this girl in trouble
a joke this girl played on her Dom – punishment will likely follow soon
Orally retentive bastard!
a bit about oral sex in our D/s
Thoughts of Chairman Grim
Grimly writes his own thoughts
Good v Bad TV Maids
an advert for the Muir Academy
Fear becomes kink
this girl overcomes upside down suspension – illustrated
Fifteen inches of leather
more on the signifcance of collars
BBB in 2 weeks
we will be at BBB in December
More hanging around
inverted suspension – illustrated
S&M-ercise
a you-tube clip showing a pro Domme’s views on exercising her clients
The man who tortures dreams and cuddles nightmares
a bit about dreams, and reality, and about an evil man lol
Hanging boxes
about putting people in boxes, including this girl and an illustration of suspension – illustrated
The effects of one night of erotic denial
a night in chastity – horrible!
Sugasm 106#my first sugasm
Learning how to kneel
about the kneeling trainer device he made – illustrated
A bit of blogkeeping
blogroll more descriptive
Custom maid latex
new latex maid’s dress-illustrated
The control button
a bit more on sexual and mental control-illustrated
How this girl spent 11/11/11-07
a weird remembrance sunday
The **** machine
the home made fuck machine – illustrated
Where to put clothes pegs
a little about clothes pegs – why they’re good and why they’re naff too! – illustrated
Don’t play with electricity
A bit more on electro play – illustrated.
A bit more on ponyplay
A bit more on ponyplay
Pony play
pictures from this summers’ pony play experience of this girl harnessed pulling her Dom around – illustrated
Protected
A private post from this girl to her Dom
Latex on flickr
pictures now on flickr of this girl dressed in a white latex catsuit
Crime on collar me
about a very dodgy collarme profile
Love our lurkers day
this girl’s contribution to love our lurkers day
The concept of punishment
about the difficulties of punishing someone with pain – who’s a masochist
Hanging arounda bit of hotizontal suspension-illustrated
Feminine rather than feminist
a bit about conforming to his rule of looking like a girl!
Thoughts on forced female submission in literature
about Margaret Atwood’s the Handmaid’s Tale and how forced D/s is a theme..
The rules he wrote
about the rules this girl’s Dom made up
Cyber cheating
a silly mistake this girl made involving a man, a chat room and a horny mind.
Finding the type of submission that works
about how what works for one isnt for another, and how what works at the moment may change!
Thoughts on being his slave girl
thoughts on being a better slave
No hidden wires or trapdoors
about magic and illusion and bdsm – illustrated
Contemplating control and correction
thoughts on correction and punishment
Another milestone
meeting his parents
Is this what a slave application looks like these days
Some dom’s idea of a slave application – bad!
If Doms had contracts
an example of what a contract for a dominant might look like
His 24/7
about this girl and her Dom’s version of ‘24/7′
First taste of masochism
about this girl’s first experience of caning – illustrated
Fantasy Dom?
about Doms in this girl’s childhood fantasies
Inducing submission and orgasm
a bit more on breath play – illustrated
No going back – no velcro
a few thoughts about her collar
Hooked on him
about being ‘hooked’ to an evil sadist – illustrated
Tower of pain
home made tower of pain – nipple torture – illustrated
Wooden pony riding with a difference
home made wooden pony – illustrated
Excitement v Apprehension
more thoughts on masochism and play
Zentaiabout zentai suits – illustrated
Proud to be his girl – so there
revenge re the apparently abnormal post
Out of his control
about how that doesnt feel good
Apparently abnormal
about narrow minded attitudes towards age
Master’s bio
about Master’s page
How much longer
missing his company
Going from on line to real life
Making the progress to meeting
Beginnings and ends
the starts and ends of this girl’s bdsm relationships
Harry potter and you – no – poo
about playing and trying to read Harry Potter at the same time
Secret identity and alter-ego’s
who’s real the master or the man?
The look of the thing
how a sub behaves can reflect the dom
Harnessed and controlled
a new harness and feelings of control and power exchange – illustrated
Frustration
getting turned on by chastity
home maid chastity and control
a picture of the chastity/control belt – illustrated
Submissive loving
Is it submission…is it love…both? – illustrated
Like the first time
why this girl still gets butterflies in her tummy when seeing him
Remote control
about remote control play (not talking about the TV)!- illustrated
Our special weekend
about a BDSM camping weekend/fetish party and our collaring ceremony
Clip clop pony play
about pony play and a picture of home-made hoof boots – illustrated
Some people turn your world upside-down
Playing with the tilt frame that he made – illustrated
In production
oh dear – her Dom is back busily making torture devices! – illustrated
Self confidence and progression
feeling more comfortable with submission
Make believe
how dressing up adds to the fantasy – illustrated
about limits and power exchange
about these ideas
Writing this way
about why this girl writes 3rd person
Marking territory
showing off whose slave she is
Struggling with submission
understanding her submission
Taken in hand
thoughts on this concept
Nemesis & BBB
planning a visit – illustrated of a previous one
Rule 1) Master is always right
thoughts on rules and contracts
No velcro collars for this girl
about why a collar should be a commitment not taken lightly
Abusive doms or consensual fantasy
the difference between them
Master’s advertisement
The blog that attracted this girl to her dom
This girl – his girl
thoughts on valentines day
Did you come here to read something kinky
japanese porn – so bad!
Control F R E A K control and power exchange
Freely captivated
being owned because she wants to
collars
about getting an eternity collar
A shock to the system
a bit more on electro-play
Making love
why sex is better when you actually love the person
We have ways of making you talk
about communication
thoughts on playing with other people
involving others – a good idea or not
Everything but the puddles on the floor
having a guest visit who is into puppy play
The internet and BDSM & D/s
is this internet a good thing for BDSM?
Politically and socially incorrect
about acceptability out of the scene and within it within this context
Far from angelic behaviour
being bratty in front of their torture victim
Elegance and electrics
about going to a fetish party and showing off with electrics
Audience
about writing for an invisible audience
Home-made BDSM equipment
about having some one who can make it
Fiends and family
about introducing him to the family
What it means to call him Master
…well to this girl..
Wanting it or needing it
is bdsm a want or a need?
Dressing or undressing to please
about fetishing clothing & latex
Recognitionabout being recognised…
Fantasies and fears
making fantasies just that…and not nightmares
Unconditional
unconditional love
Too old for this shit?
thoughts after meeting a 90yr old spanker..
Fly on the wall
a play session involving being tied to the wall and off the ground and teased
Hurt not harm
The difference between…
Breath play
about breathplay – illustrated
Distance D/s
about being in a D/s relationship long-distance
Imagination
why its so handy in BDSM
Positivies and negatives
finding the balance
Comments
thanks for the comments you make
A sub is for life not just for christmas
missing having a subbie and thoughts about whether it would be a good idea
The impatient patient
about her doms doctor ‘character’ – illustrated
Un-safe words
words that are ‘dangerous to say to your dom
Losing yourself in role
a little on roleplay
Whose therapy
how playing can sometimes be a kind of ‘therapy’
Mental submission
about how submission can do things to the mind
Bottoming from the top
a theory and thoughts on this
Meeting needs
how her Dom meets her needs more
One of those women
the wrong idea of submission
Sub drop
thoughts on sub drop
This girl is a submissive woman
Poem – self written
Not equal but halves of a whole
Poem – ‘i am a dominant man’ not self-written.
The hanging cage
hanging-cage suspension
Bound in leather
playing with electrics and heavy bondage – illustrated
More confessions
about this girl’s D/s (and brattiness – since worn off – a bit!)
Falling into submission
how submission has taken its hold on this girl
Public play
the pro’s and cons of public play
Pain processing and the pride of mascohism
about wanting and trying to take ‘more’
More on controlled orgasms
about orgasmic control
Her sadist, her torturer, her lover and her friend
about her loving sadist
Switch on, switch off
thoughts on switching
Cinderella complex
about feeling left out from the public scene
One in a million
feeling lucky that she has her Master
Pro’s and Con’s
about pro subs and pro doms – and this girl’s visit to a pro-dungeon
The price to pay for having a nice bum
some of the pitfalls of being a pro-spankee
Special service
Master’s maid
S/m with D/s and vice versa
Needing both S/m and D/s
Humiliation
humilation and how it works for this gir
Enemas
Enemas
Chastity
first thoughts on chastity
To itch a metaphor for masochism
about masochistic addictions
Headology
thoughts on an article found about why we space…or don’t..
Sadomasochistic Confessions
admitting liking pain
Playing for the first time
about this girl’s first visit to her Master’s playroom
YOU!
first meeting her Dom
A perfect weekend
a weekend at a fetish BBQ/party – this girl’s first proper go of pony play – illustrated
Escapist fantasies
keeping fantasies seperate to reality, but keeping both feeling real
Sex and BDSM
a bit about sex when it is part of a D/s relationship
Master’s Property
a little about ownership
Master’s Collar
About collars and their importance
BDSM relationships
An intro about BDSM relationships
