Someone at this girl’s work today said ’so why is there the 2 minutes silence at 11am’ Seriously. Like the 11th hour of the 11th day of the 11 month meant nothing.  Maybe to some people it doesn’t. Certainly to this girl and to Grimly it means something, since both of them have always honoured remembrance sunday and the 11th November. Its how they were brought up.

For this girl it was always a family thing, going to observe the silence at the local monument and then watching the poppies being drifted out to sea. Something about sharing that sign of respect with people close to you is important, it means something and especially since its important to remember what people have sacrified, and continue to do so.

Though of course, yeah, there’s people who forget that or just don’t think about it. So, maybe the person who asked why it was just didn’t have the same understanding of what it means, or interest. But for this girl its something thats important to remember and show respect of.

This girl gets worried sometimes about forgetting other things. She mostly has a good memory, but sometimes little things that she would like to save a place for in her head don’t stick..and just with time sort of get forgotten a bit. Things related to her childhood, to family members that aren’t alive anymore. This girl sort of worries about that she’s starting not to think about her Gran as much as when she first died, and that because of that she’ll start to forget things, like what she sounded like, or what her favourite cardigan was like. Maybe that sounds silly to some people, but its something this girl is afraid of forgetting. Well perhaps not so much the cardigan, since it was pretty unforgettable given it looked like a big hairy bumblebee

Probably this girl has been guilty lately a bit of forgetting what Grimly means to her. Since getting back from Canada, there’s been a lot going on, workwise, and places to go and do things. So this girl hasn’t really had a chance to be really all that submissive to him, so because of that she’s sort of lost the feeling of that a bit. It’ll be ok the next time she sees him, but at the moment, its sort of because he’s not there she doesn’t really have the reminders that she would like. She wants to feel controlled, and submissive, but sometimes when trying to work extra and manage everyday life, which is life 200 miles away from him , thats difficult.

Really, Grimly means a lot to this girl. Maybe other people don’t see it, but whilst they might see him as a villain he is her hero. He rescued her from being unhappy, and from being with someone who just drained her confidence, finances and view of herself. So he’s not a hero in the sense of winning some battle or medal, but he’s a hero to her and not a person on this planet can convince her otherwise. Sometimes theres moments when she forgets all of that though, when she has a rough day and bites his head off, but probably a lot of relationships are like that where you maybe snap at each other when you really dont mean to …its just thats the person thats there ..and she really does appreciate Grimly being there for her, even when its just as support and company, rather than as a dominant. So most people maybe wouldnt agree, but to her its more important that he’s her friend and partner than her Dom.

Mostly though she keeps forgetting that she’s supposed to be submissive.

It shouldnt be that difficult to be submissive. He isnt’ demanding and BDSM with him is fun and exciting, and an adventure. The physical parts are easy…the stuff you see pictures of thats the easy bit…getting into the right headset is okay too sometimes….it’s just the sort of problem is working out how to stay in it. This girl always thought she had the balance of it worked out just right, but at the moment it sort of feels a bit wonky. To be honest, this is probably just mostly drop from the holiday, since there hasn’t been much BDSM happening since then due to nilla stuff, and its sort of like going from that fantastic experience to being back at work, and working extra, and having issues with a few things mechanically at home that things just feel a bit crap. So going from 25 degrees in Canada to 4 degrees in Scotland doesn’t help either! (centigrade)

Though, there’s good memories of the holidays and still more stories on that to come plus more adventures planned so this spell should lift. Sorry for the mope!

This girl mentioned in her last post that she sometimes fidgets during bondage, other times she doesn’t have the option, and its’ just a matter of waiting to see what happens, and not being able to escape what comes next….

One of the great things about going to see JG Leathers in Canada, was that this girl *never* really knew what was happening next, everything was new. Well, not totally completely new in the case of some things – in some cases a variation on a familar theme…but a new slant at least. So it was hard to know what to expect, or how she might feel about it until it happened. So she just had to wait and see what would happen.

That was very interesting. To see how someone did bondage that wasn’t Grimly. Since for a long time he has been the only one. So, whilst he has a very extensive repertoire it was fun to see someone else’s for a change….especially when it’s a person who is at the very least equally as devious and inventive as he is.

Sometimes such bondage requires a lot of patience to wait for things to get ready, to rig it all up. Other times its relatively simple, and yet still very in your face.

Like this. JG introduced  some of the wonderful bondage gear made by Axmar in Germany, including this – the nose shackle.

This girl doesn’t have any facial piercings, aside from ears, but this little device allows the wearer to experience what being restrained by a nose piercing would feel like, since it clamps the septum. It doesn’t hurt, unless someone has a chain dangled from it and yanks, or, you move the way you’re not supposed to.

It was very effective bondage. This girl loved it

It was sort of because it was so simple, yet, such an obvious sign of not being in control, and having to move where she was told to avoid it twinging felt very erotic. Probably the most simple thing to compare it to is that feeling you have when you have nipple clamps on and someone is holding the chain and threatening to drop it, and you know that if they do then it’ll hurt more, and you sort of want it to, and dont’….well …its a bit like that. A bit of a predicament, you can either stay where you and be controlled, and elegantly submissive or you can get a fix of pain for your masochism.

Actually, thats a weird predicament. This girl isn’t sure what she prefers when in that sort of situation. Whether she prefers avoiding the pain and doing as she’s told, or risking a bit more discomfort because that too is arousing.

Either way the Dom wins. He either gets compliance and submission, or he gets to be a sadistic bastard. Mostly Grimly gets both. Funny thing that!

So…you probably want to see a picture of this ? Well

For any one currently irritated by the issues with the post in the UK…just think….at least you dont have this being delivered!

This girl often fidgets quite a lot if given more than an inch to move. It’s not often of course that Grimly gives her more than an inch to move during play…but sometimes he does!

This girl isn’t really sure why she does that, it’s just really one of those things. It happens mostly when she’s left in a sort of state of fantasy abandonment – where she’s not really abandoned – since he might be within earshot or maybe watching on the CCTV. During those moments, she starts wondering if she can get out of the bondage.

It’s daft really because this girl loves bondage, she loves the feeling of control it gives. Though despite that , she sometimes wants to test it. Of course, she only gets out of the bondage if he wants her to, but it doesn’t stop this girl  fidgeting if Grimly’s not there to make something else happen. There are times when he’ll maybe make it possible for her to get out of the bondage. Where ‘possible’ actually means – difficult, provided a bit of skill and cunning are both used. In fact, it’s probably just as well he doesn’t take photos of her when she’s trying to work out escape routes because it would just no doubt look comical!

When this girl is successful in getting out of it, its a weird feeling because whilst there’s the momentary feeling of success…it sort of feels wrong as well…like she’s not supposed to. But then you know, if he didn’t want her to work out an escape route he wouldn’t make that possible.

Mostly this girl fidgets just to remind herself of the restraint, of the control, and of his deviousness of course since the security of it demonstrates how things are supposed to be. Sometimes even simple bondage can be effective at that – like in the picture below, taken during this girl & Grimly’s holiday to Canada…just a few handcuffs and a bit of chain can be as effective as anything of higher technology. During that afternoon, Grimly was just a little way away being shown something in JG’s workshop….this girl fidgeted and fidgeted and jangled the chains about akin maybe to something out of a Christmas Carol…and whilst she could get the chain off the hook in the decking she couldn’t get any further since she couldn’t stand up because of the cuffs round her feet. So, it left her with no option really but to relax in the sun until they decided to come back, and funnily enough, once she relaxed into that knowing she had no way out until a key was provided, she got a little spaced. Not a lot, but enough to be in a nice relaxed happy place.

This girl met a very nice man on holiday whose main kink is straight jackets – she tried a couple out and might post some pictures of that at some point. He offerred to teach her a little bit about how to get out of them…and she declined.

This girl doesn’t really want to be an escapologist as such. She doesn’t want to learn about the weakness of a piece of bondage kit unless it’s something blindingly obvious to her. Since, thats not the point of it. The point of bondage for this girl is for her to feel in a secure and controlled place where she can wait for other things to happen. Things that she wants to happen, but might decline if actually given the option. That, and it’s erotic of course just by itself. Although, the straight jacket fella did hint that he enjoyed the jackets he couldn’t get out of possibly more than the ones that could be escaped.

Ultimately, this girl doesn’t want to escape .

Someone once asked her at a club she was at, where she was in the simple bondage and restrictions provided by ballet boots whether, after protesting how evil Grimly was, whether she wanted to be rescued :

“Well do you want to be rescued?”

Her answer of course was no. At that point, and so many others she loved the predicaments presented by the bondage…and knowing that such very visual signs of control were there until her Dom chose for them not to be. This girl would never want to be rescued from bondage, since she’s never been restrained in a way where she’s felt in any danger…apart from the danger of knowing that some of her fantasies might come true of course!

So, she remains an extremely ineffective at escapology, and wouldn’t have it any other way

From Submissive Guide :

This is the third SubWise! You know what to do by now. Luna gives out a topic to write about and your task goes like this: Write about the topic in your blog or online journal. You don’t have to have a blog to participate. If you have a FetLife account you can use your writing section. Other communities also have journal areas where you can post your response. Send Luna an email letting her know where to find your post about the topic. She need the URL to the post, not the link to your home page of the blog. Repost the list of posts within one week of when they are published on Submissive Guide. The topic carnival will be published on October 28th so all submissions should be received by October 27th at midnight CST. Please feel free to let your friends know about this carnival. The more people that participate the better! Okay so the topic you will be writing about is:

Do you find obedience to be easy for you? Why or why not?

Here are the essays of the others who have contributed so far :-

Master Stone’s Princess

Slave to Don

& Here is this girl’s answer:

The short answer is no. Or at least, mostly, no. But there is quite a bit of background to this.

When this girl got into BDSM she not was really looking to be submissive necessarily. She was looking for someone who could make all the sensual tortures she dreamed about come true. Those early fantasies were based really on the physical – of demented sadistic men doing cruel sexual things to her. That is what her first fantasies were. Not really about being submissive, or of being in any sort of service based relationship. However, when this girl found out about the existence of BDSM and the connection of that her to those early dreams, she found out about submission, and began to think that she wanted that too. She does want that too. Something about being owned and  being controlled, by a man with the power to inflict pain or pleasure just felt like the ideal. Obedience didn’t necessarily fit in with that for this girl, but funnily it does for most other people!

The bit where this girl struggles with the obedience thing is that unless the Dom demonstrates a reason for her to obey him, it conflicts with her idea of her self i.e. of having her own mind, and of having the ability to make her own decisions in life. This girl has never wanted to feel as though she is someone who obeys mindlessly….that would walk off a cliff if she was told to by her dom, or who would cut off family if he asked her to. Or any of those sorts of things that you see happen on fetlife or other forums where female submissives have got themselves into all sorts of misery out of doing what their dom said in the name of obedience — cutting off family, friends,work, breeding – all manner of stuff. Its always appeared to this girl that with getting ‘too obedient’ there’s a bit of a danger in things getting a bit sticky.

She’s been in that sort of place.  Where doing things to please a man caused her unhappiness. With her previous dom, this girl tried to do things to obey him. Because it was sort of part of the idea that he was dom she was sub and that was supposed to be what happened, and in return for her obeying him, she would get what she needed too. Ultimately she didn’t. Partly it ended up being a compatibility issue, but she just didn’t have any pleasure in doing the things he wanted. She asked him once what was more important to him, obedience or love, and his answer was obedience.  She asked him what would happen if she no longer wanted to be his slave – and he said it would be the end. This girl knows that Grimly’s answers to those same questions are different.

What this girl has learnt is there has to be a reason to want to obey. There are maybe people out there who are, or at least claim to be ‘naturally submissive’ and will do what they’re told without question. But even they, must have a reason, or a motivation?  This girl can only speak from her own experience of course, and maybe its different being more so a masochist to begin with than a sub, but still.

Looking back, this girl found that giving herself a label of sub, or slave, didn’t make it necessarily work. She had to feel that. It’s difficult to be introduced to someone who claims to be dom and then just obey, just like that. There needs to be some sort of chemistry, some sort of desire to want to obey.

The reasons for obedience aren’t necessarily always positive.

With hindsight, this girl has realized that most of the times when she obeyed her ex dom, the reason was fear. Sometimes the fear was minor, that he would sulk, or that he would not choose to play with her. Other times it was more serious, that he would leave, that he would break up with her and out her. Control through fear is not good. He said to her that making him happy should be enough for her. It never was. Besides anything else he always wanted something more. Always something more than her for that matter too. All the while this girl just felt as though she wasn’t good enough, not submissive enough, not pretty enough. Just not enough . There has to be a point, where self -preservation kicks in and you realise the difference between a dominant who cares about you and one that is happy for you to be a free ride and a meal ticket. Sometimes there has to be a point when they ask something of you and you realise that no matter how submisive you are you can’t do it and you have to say no. This girl stayed in that relationship too long really, but she learnt from that. She learnt what submission wasn’t. It wasn’t spending time and more money than what she had on keeping someone happy that didn’t care whether she was happy back.

So, partly because of that something about being seen to be too submissive , or obedient, at the back of this girl’s mind , frightens her. She’s afraid she might get in a mess again where she doesn’t feel in control, and where she’s afraid.

When this girl started playing with Grimly, she put the idea of submission to the back of her mind, she took it as being ‘just’ a play thing, and nothing more than that. Or at least, she tried to resist the desire to be submissive to him. Because, gradually with Grimly, it became a desire, not a fear. To begin with she resisted  it quite a  lot, she refused to call him Sir until she had no reason not to.

With Grimly, she found that she enjoyed being obedient when encouraged into it through play, through bondage, through pain, through predicaments that meant not obeying would cause discomfort. That, became incredibly erotic. It still is. It fits with this girl’s need to feel as though she is still independant and strong willed, yet sometimes controlled and turned on by the fact that there are certain elements of her that can be controlled.

Slowly however, this girl has got more relaxed about submission and about obedience. The reason is not fear, or that the concept is erotic, or that it is an extension of masochism and fantasy – but because of love. That may sound really cheesy and so on , but sometimes, it’s not a choice of obedience or love but the two sort of work together.

Its sort of because he’s the man she loves she wants to please him and make him happy, so because of that, these days, obedience is easier, she wants to do what pleases him, and ultimately, the rest of the BDSM stuff is at its best when he’s happy and not having to fight her and her insecurities. Because previously, this girl was insecure, and needed a bit of time to trust again, and feel safe and to feel as though her dom is not the type of man that would take advantage or abuse his position, and she knows that Grimly is far from that.

Probably what this girl is really in essence saying is that obedience is far easier when its out of love and trust instead of fear and insecurity. There are probably a lot of people that find being obedient easier, wheareas this girl has had to take a lot of time to realise that its safe, and that being a little controlled by the man she loves is what she has always wanted.

Assault is probably the easiest way to describe how the body feels whilst in ‘the creature’

It was an extremely unusual experience for this girl being wired up in that contraption doesn’t feel like normal BDSM. To explain that, this girl means that it doesn’t feel as though the sensation is being generated by a person – it feels as though the machine is totally in control. It feels more remote and more technosexual (to pinch a word Grimly has started using recently) than most other forms of play. It feels a bit like being tortured by a robot.

Of course, that’s not the case. Whilst it may feel as though the machinery and technology is in control there is a person behind that, the inventor of course, JG Leathers and then of course whoever he chooses to let push the buttons. The design is such that everything is controlled, similar in some aspects to Grimly’s chair – breath play, vaccuum, electrics they are all regulated. With the creature though, this is done from the other side of the room by means of an extremely elaborate control panel that looks like its been nicked from NASA or from a DJ. It isn’t of course, but thats what it reminds this girl of! Though can you honestly blame her for having these sorts of thoughts when the average technically minded dom will turn pretty much any object into an item of sensory explosion??

This girl sort of forgot there was a person in control of it at the other side of the room when she was in it and it was doing its thing. Easy really, when vision is slightly restricted by a breathing mask which is getting steadily steamed up by orgasmic gasps, and then the cables and everything dangling down between the creature and the control panel. Its like the controls, and the ability to make the ordeal stop may as well be somewhere else entirely, because it just felt as though what was going to happen would happen regardless. Thats not to say this girl felt in danger, she didn’t, she knew it was perfectly safe and that she could still communicate, but for several minutes it just felt as though she was being controlled by the machine. Sort of as though she was part of it and that it would do what it wanted.

Its easy to feel that way when every one of your senses is trying to convince you that you are part of the contraption. Visually, as you can see from the pictures, it’s hard to see where wires and tubes and bondage end and person begins. The bondage is so tight and so controlling that it felt for this girl as though the harness and the bondage mits and boots were almost part of her body. In addition the noise of the creature reinforces the idea, the vaccum makes a very sort of agressive noise whilst the bubbler bottles bubble away and froth from the controlled breathing. Smell and taste possibly aren’t stimulated as much as the other senses, but then sometimes the smell of latex and arousal is enough right – and there is still possibly, maybe, such a thing as overload. It’s probably not totally impossible for JG or Grimly at some point to come up with some sort of drinking facility for the creature, since, drinking gags are pretty easy to make and certainly Grimly has one, but perhaps it would be daft to risk someone choking themselves in the excitement. Somewhere at the back of this girl’s head there is a fantasy of being kept in bondage for a long time with enough pipes and tubes to be able to drink and eat and complete other daily functions whilst in some sort of similar elaborate contraption, but maybe thats one of those fantasies that should stay fantasy given what this girl experienced of the creature was more than enough sensation at one time than most people could think of lol.

It was an amazing thing to experience, just to see what that was like. To be in bondage that restrictive, feeling totally out of control and yet controlled, and to have that many masochistic buttons hit by something so engineered. It also explains a bit about why this girl goes for this sort of BDSM, instead of being tied to a St Andrews Cross and flogged – there’s nothing wrong with that of course, it just doesn’t push as many buttons for her as what this kind of thing does.

The sensations the creature gave this girl were almost too intense, her body shook , her eyes watered, every female related part of her tingled and twitched, or at least tried to, but struggled given the restrictive bondage. Its possibly hard to really explain any more than that, because unless you’ve experienced electrics together with bondage and breath play it’s hard to describe…apart from being slightly surreal, and odd…but utterly amazing.

One of the issues about being into weird technical mad bondage stuff is how long it takes to set up. Though, saying that, sometimes the preparation is part of the fun. It certainly was when JG & Grimly were assembling this girl into “the creature”!

It started off relatively simplistically with lots of latex – the catsuit, and then an open faced hood (to later combine with a gas mask) and latex mits – and kinky boots of course!

Getting into the latex was actually a bit different this time compared to what it is normally since JG introduced this girl & Grimly to a really good type of oil that made the rubber very shiny and wasn’t too sticky on the skin..better than getting talc everywhere anyway!

Then, came the bondage, hand cuffs, boot cuffs, and of course the harness. The harness is designed in such a way that it makes Grimly’s version of bondage overkill look simplistic! So many straps and buckles, all tightened to the nth degree partly for aesthetics and partly for safety. In addition the idea is that it holds in any ‘in flight entertainment’ devices. In this girl’s case that was a vaginal electrode, a vibrator (that in the end refused to stay in the right place!) and breast cups that are both electric and vacuum controlled. In the case of the male version (which you can get an idea of from the picture in the previous post) there is a suction tube for the penis with a urethal electrode…having seen it in use…this girl is glad she is female! Although, seeing the creature and a lot of other devices there have given Grimly a great many inspirations so she’s perhaps not that fortunate , or is she?

It was actually quite strange having someone else put her in bondage, especially bondage so intricate, because aside from when she tried on a few things belonging to Captivekink at BBB and also during a friendly visit in the spring, no one other than Grimly had put her in any bondage stuff. That is at least since her ex – and with him it was just really cuffs and collars and pretty simplistic bondage….nothing on such a demented scale as this. It was okay though. This girl felt very comfortable with JG and he explained what everything was and so on. It was good too because it meant she could watch Grimly’s reactions more than what she can normally. Grimly had first seen the harness (or a similar one) about 10 years ago, so to watch him seeing her being strapped into something that had been an inspiration for such a long time was amazing. He looked so happy.  He had this sort of look of boyish devilment, but then he does that a lot when his sadistic mind is being stimulated!

For this girl, it’s hard really to equate it. Probably the easiest metaphor is to equate it to how you feel when you are being strapped into a ride at a fairground. A ride that looks bloody scary and you aren’t really sure you want to go on because you think you might end up petrified or sick but your friends have talked you into going on it and you don’t want to look chicken. Then, there’s that last moment, when the guy operating the ride pulls down the safety bar and that’s it. No going back….it’s going to happen now and there’s no stopping it……

More pictures to illustrate this post after the page break…….Stay tuned too for the next part of the adventure

The first part of the harness goes on…..

More straps are added and tightened

JG makes the final adjustments after adding electric suction breast cups

4000 miles is a long way to go. For anything or anyone. But, then it sort of depends on whats at the end of the journey and how badly you want it as to whether the miles are worth it all. At the end of this girl’s recent journey….was this….this creature….

This girl had the creature at the back of her mind for a very long time, filed away in that section of ‘things to be curious about’. Ever since Grimly first showed her pictures of it, and that was a couple of years ago. She never thought then she would get a go in it, never mind two Then, after the tickets were booked it was six months of anxiety and excitement.

Never mind how she felt being in the same room as it. The picture shown above is how it looks when not in use. It shouldn’t be threatening in that condition. Not when its inanimate and not doing anything. But it sort of is. It has that presence, but then it is strung together in a way that makes you wonder what would happen if *you* were in it. Also, this girl couldn’t help wondering what if it comes alive at the witching hour, but then the witching hour stopped holding any fears for this girl a long time ago – because sleeping with a Grimly helped her learn that the worse things that can happen from nightmares in the small hours is that she talks about them in her sleep and then gives him ideas. So, really toys coming alive in the middle of the night are the least of her worries when she has that to contend with.

Anyway, the day came when this girl thought she was going to try it. EEk.

That morning, JG took Grimly shopping. Boy shopping for tools and DIY supplies and that sort of thing. Pervertible DIY stuff that is, is there any other sort?

So whilst they were out, this girl got ready and also incredibly nervous and worked up about it, and the heat didn’t help either.

With hindsight there was absolutely nothing to be worked up about, because its really a combination of kinks this girl is used to…just all put together…at once…to assault the body and the senses. Bondage, latex vacuum, electrics, suspension, breath play – there is nothing scary about combining all of that now is there??

Well anyway, this girl got herself pretty worked up about it, and really over nothing since as it was other stuff happened that day instead actually of the creature and it ended up being a very fun afternoon.

The problem kind of was this girl put a lot of pressure on herself by thinking too much about what other people expected of her, people who read here, other kinksters, JG, Grimly especially. Because she had it at the back of her mind that people would expect her to be amazing at this thing, since its comprised of elements of things she’s used to and does on a regular basis. She put way too much pressure on herself.

The easiest way to explain how she ended up feeling that morning is to equate it to a pre-exam sort of feeling. That sort of sickly feeling you get when you know its that moment where you are going to make a mess of things or excel and fly. The fact that this girl never had any actual problems with exams should have made her realise she didn’t actually have any problems with the creature either, but, sometimes irrationality sets in.

It’s perhaps not that unusual to end up being nervous before play for some people.  Though for this girl that whole feeling was kind of weird because its a long time since she felt apprehensive about playing  because she normally plays in her own environment with her own dom with equipment and toys that have familiarity. So being in an alien environment was something else. Not that JG’s an alien – although, if he is , Grimly is most likely from the same planet – they had so much in common!

So, she got the jitters quite a bit, and the more jittery she got the more confused she got. To the point where she began to wonder, just for a bit, whether she wanted it. Any BDSM. Being confronted suddenly, by the fact that something she had wanted for a long time was going to happen she got quite scared of it and started thinking vanilla thoughts. Like..’what the fuck am i doing here’. ‘why do i want to have this done to me’ at least that was the jist of it.  This girl feels a bit daft trying to explain it now, because it all sounds so dumb and irrational but that is how nervous and anxious of it she actually got – and all self inflicted.

When Grimly and JG returned this girl didn’t mention any of that to them at the time (though she did talk to Grimly later), because she didn’t want to freak them out or cause any sort of disappointment or ruin things so she just kept quiet. Perhaps not the best thing to do, but then, as she relaxed into it everything turned out fine and is it worked out this girl did end up going through with it and doing lots more stuff besides for what she is extremely grateful for being able to experience.

It was just one of those mornings. Where, confronted with that ultimate fantasy this girl got really confused and muddled up. Some wiser person might say that she should have been careful what she wished for because those wishes certainly ended up coming true!

However, sometimes thats the thing with BDSM, it can be a bit edgy, a bit on the dark side , cause a bit of fear and adrenaline rush….and that’s all part and parcel of it. Ultimately, this girl knew that it was what she wanted – she just needed to be gently reminded by that by two exceptionally kinky gentleman who gave her a fantastic experience to remember! This girl has absolutely no regrets about anything that happened, it was amazing. The only regrets she had were that she had a couple of moments of being a confused idiot!

But then, don’t we all have those?

Just a very quick one to wish all the Canadian readers a very happy thanksgiving

So, the holiday is over, the jet lag has subsided and now its time to start trying to explain what has been happening over the last few weeks- quite a lot! and its safe to say its been easily the kinkiest but still most amazing holiday this girl has ever had!

Its hard to know where to start!

Well, for this girl it started on a cold September morning at Glasgow Airport wondering whether the bag full of kink was going to get through security. Sorry actually thats TWO bags. Soft nike bags, which she consented to using after Grimly insisted using a suitcase would not leave enough weight allowance for the rubber and the boots. This issue  caused several debates. But ok, this girl can now admit he was right (reluctantly!)

Well the kink and the vanilla camouflage got to Vancouver, as did this girl and Grimly in a pretty normal fashion. However, from being picked up by JG Leathers, normality swiftly vanished. To borrow the quote from his website :-

“MY life is NOT going to be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely, in a pretty and well preserved body. I fully intend to skid in with my shoes on fire, a smile on my face,
thoroughly used up, totally worn out,and loudly proclaiming”WOW!! What a friggin’ ride!”

Perhaps it was a little mad to go all that way to meet ’someone off the internet’ but then JG is someone very well respected within the kink community and someone thisgirl and Grimly have been corresponding with on a fairly regular basis over the last two or three years after finding ‘one or two’ things in common and have several mutual friends as well. So safer than your random internet meets, and is it turned out he was exactly as this girl had imagined though somewhat larger than life!

From the first time he said ‘why don’t you come over and see Canada…and take a ride in the creature ‘ this girl took steps to encourage Grimly into agreeing with her that it was a good idea despite there being always something else that needs to be saved for as well. But you know, sometimes its good just to live for the moment and experience what you can and this girl will never regret having had the experiences she’s had over the last few weeks. Not one of them.

This girl is pretty fortunate in that since she met Grimly experienced pretty much everything she could imagine and then some, but there are still some people out there with ideas that she is curious about….and so that curiousity has now been satisfied Though it didn’t stop there, not only did this girl try the creature there was plenty of other kinky experiences as well not to mention all the great people she and Grimly were introduced to and she’s still processing a lot of all that so those people that want to see this girl in the creature will need to wait just a teeny bit longer !!

Ultimately though this whole kink thing works best when you have special friends and one special person in particular to share it with. Otherwise it would be a pretty lonely adventure. When thisgirl met Grimly she didn’t expect that she would fall in love with him, she saw him as someone who might be able to provide a fix for her masochism and let her try a few things she had fantasised about for a very long time. Though, as it happened comptability showed itself in other areas as well and things just went from there. In a way that stuff has all gone a bit full circle in that when this girl first started experimenting with BDSM it was a ‘me’ thing and its not very much an ‘us’ thing and sharing whats gone on the last few weeks cements that.

But there is more to this girl and Grimly than BDSM, its just what brought them together, and the same goes for a lot of friends too.

This girl has been in love with her collaborator and partner in crime for a long long time, and so, the fact that he proposed last week has made her so very very happy – the man of her dreams – its HIM. Some people might not understand that , but they don’t have to because well it takes all sorts and he’s her sort. Pretty much everyone this girl and Grimly met recently commented on that…how well it works and that feels good

So you can probably work out about how this girl feels about being his ball & chain!