A leopard can not change her spots

When this girl and Grimly visited Bridgewood last week she got to  one of the nice features there – the cage pit. It is a cage built into the ground that can then be concealed to make it look as though there is nothing there. This girl sort of wished she had tried the similar pit at SeriousBondage but this one was a lot of fun.

This girl had recently bought some leopard skin stuff as a bit of fun since her friend Maxi had given her leopard skin sunglasses for her birthday so this girl ended up getting the tail and the ears and the shoes to match those. The outfit is  not properly completed yet, since this girl is wanting to create a sort of Bettie Page look with it eventually.

This girl could have probably stayed in the pit a very long time. It was very comfortable and cosy.Another friend had brought a blanket that matched too just by coincidence. Perhaps making it cosy and comfortable is not the idea though really that most people would connect with a pit in the woods.  Someone else did a very cool isolation session in the pit and it can be quite austere and bare for that kind of scenario. This girl really does love bondage equipment that can be modified to suit the fetish and requirements of the individual and then changed again for someone else, it makes it perhaps fun to see how someone else views the same thing.

Luckily a kind person decided to bring this girl some zebra for lunch.

yumm!

I asked the zebra,
Are you black with white strips?
Or white with black strips?
And the zebra asked me,
Are you good with bad habits?
Or are you bad with good habits?
Are you noisy with quiet times?
Or are you quiet with noisy times?
Are you happy with sad days?
Or are you sad with happy days?
Are you neat with some sloppy ways?
Or are you sloppy with some neat ways?
And on and on and on and on
And on and on he went.
I’ll never ask a zebra
About stripes
Again.

@Shel Silverstein A Light in the Attic

Touch wood

At the weekend together with some friends, this girl and Grimly visited Bridgewood. This is a private woodland operated by a friend of ours.

This girl had visited there once before whilst passing the area with Captive Kink, but this was the first time she and Grimly had been to an event there. It was amazing!

The venue is very private and a sort of bit of heaven compared to being away at work all week during the day and a house full of sawdust from the work on the loft at night! There is a beautiful little log cabin that people can socialise in, and then tracks through the woods for pony play and other open air activities and also with various bondage equipment dotted about under the trees.

Perhaps what made it special was that it was Maxi’s birthday as well, so after this girl being embarrassed by it being her birthday at the last public event she went to she got her own back hehehe. Yes it could have been the weather on Saturday that it is now (which actually is too hot!) but other than the weather not being perfect the place is fantastic.

Perhaps what this girl liked most about it was that whilst there are so many opportunities and variations of outdoor play that can be done there the social side of it is very nice. The cabin is cosy, there was good company and interesting conversations and no cliques or bitchiness that sometimes happens at fetish events. It was perhaps one of the friendliest events this girl has ever been to.

She managed to do a little pony play with Grimly, the first really outdoor play she’d done since being LadyM”s pony girl in Canada, so that was good to do. Whilst this girl also likes the indoor events that have been running in Birmingham, she does much prefer being a pony actually outside, it just seems to be easier to get into character.

This girl really needs some new pony boots though. She left the ones she wore for Folsom in Canada, but they would be no good for Bridgewood or really any outdoor event as generally woodland is not 100% flat. This girl needs some boots that look as good but are flatter and more suited to woodland. Perhaps Grimly can invent something once the playroom is finished.

That is coming along well, perhaps some photos will follow of the progress soon

Chain gang

Here are some more pictures to continue from the previous post, these pictures show this girl dressed in latex and chains with Msspentyouth, a friend she and Grimly met during their honeymoon on Vancouver Island

The steel frame was made by Henry, a friend on the Island with a penchant for engineering Grimly might plan something similar (and collapsible) for the playroom here, since it is a very versatile piece of kit and adaptable for height, and as you can see various implements some nice and some nasty can be attached!

Anyway the pictures probably speak for themselves hopefully they truly communicate the level of frustration of being chained opposite a beautiful girl and not being able to do much given there was too many chains and chastity belts in the way!

Not let off the hook

So after blogging so much last month this girl thought she might get away with not really bothering much this month. Not so.  A certain reader made a complaint. Given he’s her most special reader she thought she had better get on and write something.

Sadly, the response of ‘yeah but you haven’t done anything to me for ages, so i don’t have much to write about’ didn’t really work

So, a general update.

The new boiler was fitted last monday and works great.  The plumber did a very good job and the new boiler is  in the kitchen instead of in the attic. There is still some general ‘attic shite’ in the attic at this present time, but gradually it is being cleared out to make way for Grimly’s imagination. Last week there wasn’t a floor in the attic, or at least not much of one. Thanks to a lot of work from Grimly and a local friend there now is flooring and boards up to take the plasterboard for the walls. It’s still going to be some time before its decorated though and the kink moves from its temporary home in the garage to its’ permanent one.

Life is pretty different just now what it was. It is fantastic having him here, especially every night and every morning. But jeez even dominant men have some bad domestic habits like leaving the seat up and stuff like that! It is weird actually being so long living apart to living with all his quirks all the time. Grimly is working very hard though at building the playroom and also doing general work on the house as well, so all that is very much appreciated by this girl. Given though he is so busy and working hard there is not much time or energy for kink.

As a result, some sort of energy is building and will need an outlet at some point, some time, eventually So this girl  really isn’t off the hook. She really isn’t going to get away with all the things she’s done that have wound him up since he moved in here. Oh well she’d be disappointed if she did.

The lovely msspentyouth shouldn’t really be let off the hook either

Hat-trick

The third and final part of the recent shoot this girl did with J of boundinlatex.com is now on their website

This is this girl’s favourite set of the pictures as it shows off her butterfly straight – jacket that TLC made her and also a blue latex dress J lent her to wear superbly And there is something about a certain menacing woman in a hat that made it quite sexy!

Hope you enjoy the full set of over thirty photos – available here.

Turning on the waterworks

So, just a small update at the moment.  Grimly and this girl had hoped to be by now starting the works required to build a new playroom here. But it’s all been held up!

The first thing that needs to be done is for the old cold and water tanks to be moved out by a qualified plumber so that a new central heating combi boiler can be installed down in the kitchen instead.  Plumbers came out to quote.  A quote was accepted. The plumber did not turn up. So, back to square one with getting more quotes since the other ones weren’t that great.

It’s frustrating! This girl is really keen for the plumbing to get done so Grimly can get to work with flooring the loft and building the playroom. It should really end up being quite impressive if it all goes to plan as per his imagination  In addition once the plumbing work is done work can also start on improving the kitchen and bathroom. So everything is all a bit held up just now.

So in a way it’s a good thing the playroom is not there and these other distractions, since it has been nice just having Grimly here as a husband rather than as an evil bastard at the same time. It’s great waking up with him, going to bed with him, and being picked up from work sometimes and just other little things like chilling out together on the sofa and sharing meals.

Ok so eventually the novelty of all that might wear off. It’s not all been rosy either, it’s weird for this girl to be getting used to living with someone else, especially someone who is her husband and her dom, after being so long alone with her own way of living. But the benefits outweigh the little compromises.

There has been a little bit of D/s stuff and bondage raising it’s head here and there but this girl is really looking forward to the next main weekend she has dedicated for that with Grimly at an outdoors bdsm venue in a little over two weeks.

It’s good really to have something to look forward to Patience though is not really one of this girl’s virtues!

30 days of submission : Day 30

Is your need to submit being met? If not, or if your situation changed, do you think that you could continue in your life and still be happy/content if you were never able to express your submission in the way that feels best to you again? What makes submission special to you?

This girl’s needs are being met and have been met for a very long time by her husband and Master, Grimly. As this girl mentioned sometimes the D/s part of the relationship is more hidden than she would like and  it needs work in the future to develop more but it has a great deal of potential and it is already special for being just what it is. Though every relationship needs work if it is going to keep working, it’s not rocket science.

It’s hard to know if this girl would be content if things were to change. If something came into her life that was big enough to fill the void that not having a D/s relationship with Grimly would leave then perhaps she would readjust, but it is hard to know without being faced with that reality. For example if she had a bigger career or something like that, perhaps that would fill it, but then really it would always perhaps feel like a piece of the jigsaw was missing.

The reason why she remains in a D/s relationship with Grimly is because its what she wants and it has been for a very many years, she really cannot see that changing. She cannot see being with anyone else or leading a life different to what life is like with him .

The reason why submission is special to this girl is because being submissive to him makes her feel very aroused, very loved, very happy. There is that loving sensual side to it, but then also there is the darker and more humiliating aspects to it as well at times. It’s not always rosy sometimes its rough and ready.  Really what makes it most special is that it is fun, it is something she can share with him and no one else.

 

30 days of submission : Day 29

Is pain or humiliation (spankings for example) a part of your submission? What is your relationship to it? Do you embrace it as a part of your submission, tolerate it as necessary or have some other type of relationship with it?

Yes. This girl is most definitely as much a masochist as she is a submissive. In fact possibly more so. This girl’s initial interest in all things kink was triggered by pain and the ideas of torture, interrogation and bondage, and, gradually her interests and fantasies overlapped each other.

When she first met Grimly it was those desires really that she was looking to be fulfilled rather than submissive ones, but by meeting her need for pain and bondage she realised she wanted the other parts too, that she needed to belong to the man who could hurt her and hurt her imaginatively and erotically.

This girl and Grimly have discussed a few times whether him hurting her happens because she’s a masochist, he’s a sadist, she’s his submissive, he’s her dominant. Well, really its all of those. He enjoys it but so does she. It is part of how the D/s works with her and Grimly. It is all sort of part of it. It’s perhaps the explicit part of the relationship whereas other aspects of D/s are much more subtle.

It’s the colour and the spice and the taste. It’s the icing on the cake as it were, but there are many other ingredients

30 days of submission : Day 28

Has your submission ever let you down? Have you ever been criticized for your submission? Have you ever regretted being or feeling submissive in a moment or in a relationship? Have you ever looked back and realized you made a mistake and how did you handle your submission going forward from that.

This girl wouldn’t say her submission has ever let her down as such, more she’s let herself down at times over things, sometimes D/s related, other times not. She’s only human after all and therefore she has her flaws. Most of the times when she’s let herself down have been because she’s not had the confidence to push for what she’s wanted just that little bit extra. However Grimly is the best tonic for confidence she has ever and so she is getting a lot better at going after what she wants with the faith in herself.

This girl has been criticised for being submissive. Some people see it as a weakness. That it is not a worthwhile role to take and that it is twisted to want D/s and to want all the bondage and pain of BDSM.  At least one person in the past has written to (at length) saying how what she does goes against God, and that she should be ashamed of herself, and that she should see a psychiatrist so that she has her head rewired to concentrate on the ‘normal’ things such as having a family. The thing is, people can try to tell her they think she is mad and that they think what she is doing is wrong, but you know what? That’s their opinion. They are entitled to it. They are not entitled however to try to force their opinion on her (repeatedly in at least one case). This girl is quite happy as she is. Happily married. If nothing comes over in these words and pictures surely that must. That she is happy. Aroused. In love. Well at least she hopes these things come across. If it looks like anything going on here is against her will or abusive then she is doing something far wrong in how she expresses herself because nothing could be further from the truth!

At the end of the day what goes on here is the products of the combined imagination of two people who are very into plugging into and exploring each others’ desires.

Sure, to be honest, there are times when this girl has wondered whether submission is for her. Whether she is ‘just’ a masochist. Whether her version of doing it is not as serious as **** insert other submisisve’s name here, because they perhaps follow more stringent rules and they accept situations and treatment this girl would not. There have been times when she’s wondered whether she is submissive when she’s not had outlets to exhibit it. But deep down, it is exactly what she is.

There have been times when she has made the wrong choices because of her submissive and masochistic desires. Well, the ex is the main one of those. She put up with a lot from him because she thought not doing so would be un-submissive. But there is a difference between submissive and doormat and gradually in that situation she became the latter. Grimly appreciates the fact that she is *not* a doormat. After been well and truly walked over in her previous relationship it took a long time to trust a dom again, to really let go that far, to want to obey, to want to let someone into her head, but thankfully, she did.

Take the floor!

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When this girl was in Canada, she got to try various welded creations made by her friend Henry. The pictured frame below is ingenious in that it can be used front ways, or back ways, and can be adjusted for … Continue reading →