Destiny and Chance

This girl is an avid reader of Destiny and Chance. They are one of her favourite couples to read about along with Padme & Anakin from Journey to the Darkside and Dev & Jos from Devasting yet Inconsequential.

They are real people with real stories – sometimes to do with BDSM, sometimes not, somethings just you know, general relationship stuff.

Chance wrote a very moving blog today, this girl won’t reiterate the content here, apart from to offer support, and well, to share something that might be meaningful. 

Chance quoted this girl as being ’someone who really has her shit together’. She doesn’t. At least she hasn’t felt really that way recently.

The whole BDSM thing is sometimes a bit up and down. That happens. Life gets in the way, or for all sorts of reasons that might look trivial to somewhere else it just doesn’t work as it might. As other people might expect it to. As even you yourself might expect it to.

This girl has lost count of the times when she gets frustrated with herself for disappointing Grimly, or not feeling that she is being the submissive she feels she could be for him and generally blowing a bit hot and cold with him regarding the whole great big submission thing.

Grimly is this girl’s dream dom. Everything she wants in a man wrapped up in a kinky package – and he loves her. That makes her feel amazing. So, she feels so annoyed with herself when she doesn’t fulfill her part of the deal so well…which being honest…she’s been a bit dismal at recently, hence possibly sporadic blogging, well because she hasn’t been all that proud of her behaviour, and aside from the pony play trip to Wales (details and pictures hopefully to follow soon) it’s a bit up and down and this girl is not proud of that. But you know, she is the sort of  person who tries to be honest about her behaviour – she’ll try and tell you when things are rough as well as when things are sexy and amazing  just to sort of as much as anything to show resemblance to reality. Though, you know, things will work out. They generally do.

This girl’s biggest problem is probably she can be selfish at times, more taking than giving – and she’s been guilty of that with Grimly , and because he loves her, he’s put up with it. He shouldn’t have to. Maybe writing this , maybe admitting to herself that she’s been recently unfair on him will make her do something about it. Well maybe a leopard can’t change it spots, but then, this girl wants more than anything to be everything he wants instead of to feel as though its a bit hit and miss whether the whole D/s thing works right. She doesn’t want him to feel that everytime he does something to her that it’ll go pear shaped, because at the moment he maybe does feel a bit like that.  This girl will  keep plodding on, and that’s really all the details you are getting at the moment about her failures. It’s hard enough to write that much. She needs to talk with Grimly, work out what she wants, and waht he wants too and to try and get the whole D/s thing to go a bit better – because when it works it can be fantastic…but when it doesn’t it’s a bit like going to the movies to see a film with your favourite actors in based on one of your best loved books to realise half the best scenes are cut and that it’s got a dodgy theme tune all the way through it. Or something like that. This is not necessarily a reference to The Lord of the Rings or films like that – but it could be if you want to make that comparison!

Relationship wise – things are great. The vanilla bits have always worked, they always will work . This girl couldn’t love Grimly any more or any less than she does. He is her everything, for as cheesy as that sounds. The BDSM thing just needs a little bit of work. 

Sometimes all sorts of things to do with relationships just need a little work. 

This girl came across this person the other day – Susan Boyle. Please watch the clip the picture below takes you to youtube.

Susan is someone who most people might not think to be attractive, but she shows in this little bit of footage that she’s not afraid to pursue her dreams, despite what critics might think. Well…watch a panel of critics drop their jaws. 

It goes to show that sometimes dreams and fantasies can feel a bit out of sight, or it might feel they don’t have the same relevance at other times.

But then again….keep battling on …and you never know.

Susan Boyle – I dreamed a Dream – dedicated to Destiny & Chance & of course also to Grimly……