Daddy’s little girl

This post was prompted by the fact that today this girl had the LONGEST telephone conversation she has had with her Dad in years.

Dads can be like that . You phone and its ‘here wait while i get your mum’, there’s something about some dads that they just seem ‘allergic’ to the phone. So, it was a bit of a shock when he actually held a conversation. It was nice though. Sometimes this girl feels guilty, because at present she lives approximately 200 miles north of her family and 200 miles south of Grimly, so obviously her heart (and most of the devious parts of her body) lead her towards him instead of southwards home.

Its bad really but its how it is.

This girl’s dad played some part (of course unknowingly) in getting her to be who she is. Parents do that, their influences and experiences rub off on you. To make this crystal clear, this girl doesn’t mean there was any abuse or anything like that involved, far from it. This girl’s father was someone who when she was little encouraged her imagination. He was the type of child that had adventures, he lived very close to the grounds of a Castle and so got up to all sorts, and whilst this girl couldn’t do a lot of the things he might once have done his love of things historic and medieval rubbed off on her. He likes torture chambers too but from a historic point of view, not a sexual one (at least this girl hopes thats correct). Like Grimly, he’s also one of these men that doesn’t act his age and refuses to grow up.

This girl would NEVER call Grimly ‘Daddy’.

She has never been into age play, aside from the occasional school girl role play and the like (but even then she has not done that with him). This girl gets quite interested reading about it, seeing examples of how it can work for people, especially for people that seem mentally well balanced (because she’s come across a few age players who don’t appear to be) and there does seem to be something fun and kinky yet innocent about it sometimes.

But she still would never do it with him.

Grimly is old enough (he wont like this girl saying this), just about, for such a dynamic to be believable, but it is not something that would ever be considered. Apart from anything else it just doesn’t appeal, and wouldn’t fit with how the rest of the D/s and bdsm elements of this girl’s relationship with him work. It would be too contradictory. This girl’s relationship with Grimly is one involving torture and control, and lots of sexual fantasies and so it would just not fit in.

Besides, she doesnt want to feel as though she’s his child or a little girl, she is quite happy to be a fully grown fully sexed woman. There are times when she’s a brat that he threatens her with little girl party dresses with bows on but aside from that the idea never even gets a mention. What this girl does with Grimly is very ‘adult’ and it will always remain that way.

The main reason though why this girl doesn’t even consider it is because of personal reasons, relating to her knowing that her referring to him as her daddy would  disturb him a little. It wouldn’t be respectful to her father or to his child.

She is his partner, his sex toy, his pet, his torture victim and his slave.

She is mature and adult enough to be all these things. She couldnt play the little girl.So she’ll stick to reading about people who can work their heads around this dynamic but it doesn’t fit with her own. She would rather have a good and loving father 200 miles south and a kinky, sexy, demented boyfriend 200 miles north than trying to pretend that he could fill a role that has already been filled completely adequately for all of this girl’s life.

This girl wouldn’t want anyone to try to replace her Dad any more than she would want anyone to try to replace her Master

Gagging order

This girl didn’t always feel comfortable with gags.

They take away the ability to express thoughts and fears during play, the ability to shout out, to scream and replace that ability, that freedom of speech, with an added vulnerability and helplessness.

Though, its something she’s got used to with Grimly. If he wants to gag her, he will, and if it means holding her nose to get it on, he will do that as well.

Of course, this girl has long since gotten past the point where she needs to communicate with him verbally during play. The reason why play with him is so amazing is because he takes control of it, its about him doing what he wants to do to her and then her reaction and interaction with what he’s doing.

Sometimes though, despite completely knowing that this is absolutely and utterly what she wants…she wants to fight and she wants to brat. Which is of course, completely ridiculous given how brilliant he is in all of this. It still happens though sometimes, even when she tries really hard not to, and if this girl complains too much during play it spoils his headspace too.

It makes this girl feel bad, sometimes she feels a bit like the boy who cried wolf, complaining for reasons that are minor and really in the grand scheme of things extremely insignificant.

So thats why him sometimes having the ability to force her to keep quiet and muffle her protests is a good thing. She doesn’t need to protest. He knows her body, he knows what she can take and he knows what he is doing very well indeed.

It helps this girl get deeper into her headspace too by him doing that sometimes, she feels more vulnerable, more humiliated (there is nothing nice about drooling over her own tits) and at his mercy. Sometimes in fact she wishes he would gag her more, be harder, inflict more pain, and leave her completely panicked and stricken and adrenaline fuelled as he does so.

Its one of those things about BDSM, that when you have basic things that are your human rights stripped away from you that it enhances the fantasy and the experience. Freedom of speech and movement being two very significant ones.

During play she is not really free to speak as she wants, or move around apart from within the bondage restrictions he places her in. If he wants to have it that she is completely immobile and silenced he will do it, and she gets off on that of course.

But thats during play.

In general, this girl still maintains freedom of speech. She can talk to him about things without fear that he will fly off the handle if she suggests something that he might not agree with and she knows that she can request things of him and he will always give fair consideration.

For the blog too, there is no moderation. She writes whats on her mind, or what the things he has done to her incite her thoughts into being. He doesn’t tell her what to think, or what to write, in any forum. This girl appreciates that.

This girl thoroughly loves being his slave, but she needs to be left with the freedom to express that in her own way apart from the times when he does things to her that restrict that.

Censorship has never, ever, been a good thing. So why should it be for a blog.

In fact, if she were to say something here ‘incriminating’ then it is only going to please him really, because, it will show him that little more about her current state of mind despite whether she’s already told him about it verbally or not. This girl has always got the impression that her Master values how she thinks, how she writes and how she expresses herself so he isn’t going to put a gagging order on that or censor her internet writings.

Though of course…he will keep adding to his personal gag collection for his own perverted reasons!

Phobias and fetishes

A phobia is - a persistent, irrational fear of a specific object, activity, or situation that leads to a compelling desire to avoid it.

A fetish is - excessive or irrational devotion to some activity, a form of sexual desire in which gratification depends to an abnormal degree on some object or item of clothing or part of the body.

Basically, they are opposites of one another in many respects. One being an irrational fear, the other being an irrational desire, and sometimes , with the right encouragement, one can quite easily turn into the other. There were things this girl once had irrational reasons for not wanting to try, that she was afraid of or wary of, or really was she just afraid of admitting that these weird things turned her on??

There are things this girl does now, that a few years ago would have been fears, or limits, but that with his encouragement have been overcome.

Things like hoods, latex, anything that was ‘too restrictive’ and nipple play, for a while, were the main ones. Sure, looking back now it sounds stupid and unlikely, but it was.

The nipple one is probably the easiest to explain. This girl’s ex had a desire for her to get her nipples pierced. So she got it done. Twice. Both times her body rejected it, leaving her a little scarred, not too badly but enough that it reminds her of the experience visually. After you have piercings, you have to leave them time to heal, and this girl allowed sack loads of time before she allowed anyone to come near them, to the point where it became a fear of them being touched, and the idea that touching them would lead to pleasure seemed so so unlikely. But then, she had a session with someone, a woman. It was really sensual, and really lovely, until she put nipple clamps on. This girl felt faint, and woozy and sick. It nearly ruined the scene, though a few cuddles and kisses restored that. To this day, this girl wonders when she gets that kind of sensation (and she still does sometimes though its rare) whether its because of something in her mind or whether it is a bodily reaction. It can’t really be a physical reaction though because this is YEARS ago now.

Grimly was patient with it, he realised straight away that this girl had a problem with that type of play, and so introduced it slowly, and normally after getting right into things and so it got to the point where it was tolerable, and then , eventually, pleasurable again.

Other fears, fears of extreme bondage, of masks, of hoods…they were ridiculous really and possibly related to a fear of being trapped, of being taken advantage of, of abuse and of admitting to a dark and strange kink. Again, it was overcome, with patience and demonstration that really there is nothing to be afraid of.

Maybe these aren’t *real* phobias in the sense that a fear of spiders or a fear of open spaces might be. There are some phobias that are routed much more deeply and cannot be overcome, and although seem ridiculous to anyone else are huge issues for the person involved. Though, then again, if he hadn’t taken her concerns seriously (even if they weren’t) and helped her through them, they could have spiralled into something that she might not have got her head around. This girl thinks it is really important that a Dom listens to any concerns his sub might have, and try and dispel them, whether it take one conversation, or patience over a period of time. Before anyone thinks that its possible to always overcome a submissives fear or objection to a certain type of play, it isn’t. Some nos might always be nos, some might be maybes it just needs to be worked around depending on the couple involved.

There isn’t really anything that Grimly would now want to do that she is afraid of trying. There are things that she doesnt like the thought of, such as needles, but he doesn’t either. But then, you know, its just not possible to be into ‘everything’ and this girl isn’t. Lots yes, but not every single possibliity.

There are things that she thought she would never do though, that she has done. Things that she was afraid of that have become the most erotic, incredible sensations. Like having her breath controlled, like completely feeling as though her life is in his hands, and quite often it is. She wouldn’t feel comfortable with that if she did not completely trust him and his expertise.

Thats basically how phobias are overcome, by someone explaining to you and demonstrating to you in a patient manner, that your fear is unfounded and helping you in whatever method might be necessary to vanquish it.

There are still times when this girl feels fear. Of course there are. Times when nightmares and dreams and fantasies all seem sort of muddled and adrenaline pumps around the body to deal with that.

Back on the theme of arachnophobia, as being one of the most well known phobias, this girl doesn’t like spiders. Not to the point where she will jump on furniture to avoid them, but enough that if she sees one she will feel uncomfortable until its dead or out of the window. She doesnt like killing them, because she was always told the stupid riddle of ‘if you want to live and thrive let a spider run alive’ (is this an english thing?) She doesn’t like the spider gag either, though she’s not afraid of it.

It sets her teeth on edge, it makes her drool and makes her feel completely helpless. Its one thing being bound and tortured and the subject of a madman with intentions of doing bizarre and crazy things to your body but another entirely to feel that you can’t speak up against it.

Really deep down, she knows she can’t speak up against it because whatever he wants to do will happen anyway. And yes, she knows that comes with the thought at the back of her mind that really he is never going to do anything too crazy and that he knows her body, but when she’s strapped down and at his mercy she doesnt think that rationally she just thinks of that moment.

There is nothing to be afraid of, and yet quite often she’ll still be on edge, and if she wasn’t it would be dull. So, when she’s gagged, she feels even more helpless and vulnerable, and often slightly humiliated too.

He gets off on her fear. He seems to be extremely aroused by any sign of panic or distress. He would answer that critique with the proclamation ‘I’m a sadist what do you expect?’ and so he is. He gets off on the drool too, he gets off on seeing it dribble onto her body and seeing that she can’t do anything about that. Do sadists feed on fear and anxiety? It feels that way sometimes!

Her fear, her distress becomes his fantasy.

And also, despite the muffled screams, despite the drooling, despite the looks of panic….its also hers.

Partnership

This is probably not a word everyone would use in connection with M/s, but it is completely vital.

This girl sometimes wonders whether *those* relationships exist, where the Dom makes all the decisions, what to have for dinner, what dress she should wear, what nail varnish, how she should have her hair…basically relationships where the Dom decides everything. Or as near as is humanely practical. No offence, but if this girl had a week of that she would be screaming!

That is not what this girl has with Grimly. Sure she has guidelines, things he expects (like his coffee in a morning when she’s at his or for her to adhere to the dress code) but he does not decide every little detail of her life. Just the ones he wants to, and mostly, thats for fun.

Being his slave is not exactly difficult in the sense of having to stick to pages and pages of rules or protocols. Keeping an open mind and an active imagination is valued so much more than being able to follow blindly in the relationship she has with him, and so is being a partner in things when he needs her to be. He always did say that he never wanted a doormat, and he will never have one.

Sometimes that partnership is equal, sometimes the balance tilts about, but mostly its balanced just right. Its important.

Two people in a relationship will bring to it different things, and its no different when the relationship is kinky. Grimly brings an ability to make things, to bring things to life, and this girl brings to it a willing mind and body and an ability to plaster it about the internet afterwards lol, and sure one brings dominance and sadism and the other submission and masochism.

This girl needs to feel that emotionally and romantically she is his partner. That things are shared. Not a case everything being controlled by him because he’s the Dom. That doesn’t work. This girl is not a weak woman. She’s let herself be taken advantage of before, and she learnt from that. It doesnt matter that she knows he would never take advantage of her, of her body, of her submission, she still needs to have a degree of independence and input into things.

Both the good things and bad things both need to be shared and dual responsibility in things not shifted in the name of power exchange or in the name of the Master/slave dynamic. There have been times, plenty of them, when this girl has felt reliant on him. Where she felt like she’s been a little too dependant on him for emotional support, but its part of life that just sometimes there are times like that, and he got her through that. Not because he’s her Master, but because he is her partner in everything. Whilst it may be one of his responsibilities as her Master to look after her emotional wellbeing, its not for responsiblity that he does it, its for love.

There are times when things need to be shared, emotions, experiences. Whatever.

Sure there are also times when power needs to be exchanged, given, taken, forced, surrended - whatever form that takes and they’re the fun bits but they wouldnt be fun if the rest of the time things werent well balanced and part of a loving relationship.

Sometimes this girl wonders if she is living a life of polarity, a double existence, a secret identity, at one point wanting a balanced relationship, wanting things to be shared to be equal and yet….

at the same time wanting to lovingly submit, or to be cruelly tortured and bound and dominated and being shown in no uncertain terms what she is.

But then…who says you can’t have both, and still mean it, just as much.

The chronicles of a Masochist

This girl wonders sometimes whether what she posts here is getting to be a bit too much of…’the other day we played and this is what we did. Look. Drumroll. TA-DA!’.

Thats not what she wants her blog to be like, because she wants it to be thought provoking as well as visually stimulating, and she hopes sometimes that for some people it is. This isn’t an attention seeking post, it isn’t looking for reassurance that whats here is okay, because this girl just tries to write from experience and from her head and she can’t change that. People either like it or they don’t. Though its nice when they do…like any one else this girl enjoys a bit of appreciation and popularity.

The posts that exhibit play are the ones that more or less write themselves. Its easy to describe things, to explain things and to do so in a way that gives an idea of what has happened, how it felt and its effects. Funnily enough its easier too to explain that here, than for this girl to explain things and give feedback to his face sometimes. But then, thats probably something to do with the mess her head is in right after play. Its not often that she’s written a blog right after.

In fact maybe a lot of what goes on here is a spin off of masochism.

For a masochist, for this one anyway, a lot of what happens is about taking it and showing that you can. So thats part of what the blog is about, its about showing this happened and she’s here to tell the tale

Its a lot about the physical experience, but of course there are always going to be emotional and psychological effects of that, because despite anything else that happens this stuff is always going to play with your head. Despite what anyone might say, unless you’re in some sort of professional situation where you are the client or the provider (and maybe not even then) you can’t detach your mind when your body is undergoing torment and the stuff of your fantasies.

Its about the pride, its about taking what he wants to dish out, its about turning any pain into some weird twisted form of pleasure. Which is one of those weird things, being there’s not a damn thing that he’s done to her, no matter how irritating, how sore or how humiliating that isn’t at the same time immensely erotic and sexual.

So this girl is a sexual deviant. So what of it? Its easy to write about that, its what she does. This girl has long since now gotten over any sort of shame or embarrassment over what/who she is. She likes pain and its easy to write about that.

Its harder to chronicle submission.

Submission you can’t sort of split off into sessions or one off experiences. It’s like a long running tv series (though of course not like Eastenders because Grimly hates it ) as opposed to a movie. You can’t exactly write a review of submission, because it keeps changing and adapting over time. Yes, the BDSM adapts too, new kit, new experiences, but submission is a longer more ongoing project.

Project maybe isn’t the right word but still.

Submission is easy (ish) to right about when its all new. When you are learning things for the first time. Its harder to write about it when you’re in a sort of routine that is mostly stable, but that just changes a little with a tweak here and there over a long period.

Sometimes this girl worries if there is something wrong with her submission, if there is something wrong that it is not at the forefront of her mind. That its not explicit.

But then, it is really. He just needs to click his fingers or say one word for her to be reminded of that. After all its not as though she could sit about in chains all day long. Sadly there is a thing called work!

She & Grimly have gotten into a type of relationship that suits them, that fits round what they have together, what time they share and around how things just really are. With him, this girl has a sort of submission that fits around the fact that both of them are heavily into bondage and BDSM ‘weirdness’, live apart & are completely obsessed with one another. It works. There isn’t really anything to worry about.

Her submission is strongest this way, being a desired element of life as opposed to an oppressive regimented one.

What Grimly and this girl have is most of all fun and kinky. She might not be the sterotypical slave, or he the sterotypical Master, but the whole one true wayism bollocks is not what this girl and Grimly are about and it doesn’t make them any less genuine for that.

Hopefully what finds its way here shows that, albeit sometimes in a sort of visually expressive and exhibitionist way. The showing it all off and documenting it is part of the fun

Diversion tactics

The other day, another session in the dentist chair and video mask.

For those that haven’t read any of the previous posts about the mask, it is a gas mask that has built into it video goggles to enable the wearer to see what is being streamed to them via a multimedia device….normally a video camera…and normally what is being shown to this girl are images of her own current predicament.

This has been and always will be a bit of a head fuck with a sort of pathological fascination and curiosity to it. This girl wants to look. She wants to see whats happening, and yet, at the same time she would rather not know. Sometimes she wants to know everything, see everything and feel everything whilst concurrently wanting to shut herself off from it and drift into space and quite often drift towards orgasm as well. Aware and blissed out at the same time. So sometimes a weird and confusing predicament to be in.

Aside from that, and also building on it, what her Master does to her will also play tricks on her mind causing what is technically a form of sensory overload at times.

The reason for this, especially when he’s using the mask, is that she sees exactly what he wants her to see, despite whatever it is he might be *doing*, she only sees the director’s cut of it, whilst physically her body experiences what’s going on behind the scenes as well.

So, in this instance here, she sees the suspension bar being lowered into shot, she hears him rattling for the nipple clamps and she knows what is going to happen, and, of course, she knows that it will likely hurt. He adds the clamps, and it nips, and her nipples stretch as he cranks up the suspension bar.

But then, a few seconds later, whilst the clamps are still there, and her nipples are still stretched, this girl has forgotten them. Her focus being diverted and centered on her electrocuted cunt, the vibrator on her clit and her laboured breathing through the mask as he restricts the air flow a little. Then suddenly, she’ll be reminded, when he takes the clamps off and the blood flows back and he whispers into her head the word that makes her orgasm for him. Suddenly her body feels everything at once and is overloaded and a mess.

It always seems it happens as he directs, as he wants. He has these ways of making sure that her mind seems focussed on what he wants it to be, until he wants that to change to something else. Maybe she allows that, maybe she allows her imagination and focus to be led and to be controlled, but it is part of the fantasy, its part of how it works, its part of what makes it so incredible, the way he is able to control her mind and her body just by inflicting and directing pain and pleasure.

This girl read a book recently, where one of the lead characters was into coin tricks.

One of the key things to learn apparently about coin tricks is that you should get your audience to focus where the coin should be not where it is. So, if its in your left hand, you should be flourishing your right.

Play with Grimly is a bit like that. He’ll get all her attention on one place, and this girl will think she has it all worked out, she will think she knows what is going to happen next, and then something else happens, and quite often she’ll have never even seen it coming andwill be left completely amazed, bewildered and spaced out.

The toymaker

From this week’s submissive journal prompts

Do you make BDSM toys? What are your favorites thus far?

There is a straight answer to that question…this girl does not…but Grimly does!

This girl has tried…and failed! 

When she first got into BDSM and experimenting with her first sexual partner (he was completely vanilla her encouragement didn’t work) she tried a few things she tried to make a home made collar (it was a sort of stiff material covered in fur oh yes it was awful!) and a sort of breast bondage device thing. It was cheap, it was nasty and it completely turned the poor guy off! lol. The only good thing really about the sex with him was that it was good…but it was just boring and straight without the ‘kinky sprinkles’. Apart from adventuring into anal he was pretty straight laced, it wasn’t that he was completely without adventure…it just wasn’t diversified enough into THIS direction!

Anyway, the point, is this girl didn’t have the talent for making things, and at that point didn’t know what the fuck she was making anyway.

Its not that she isn’t creative, she can be quite artistic with drawing or presenting things, but when it comes to having to use tools, wood, metal and things that can cause injury…NO.

A few weeks ago she tried to make something at Grimly’s. Just really a collar to practice a bit of leather craft. She was useless. To do it, she needed to be able to punch holes in a bit of leather in the right place so it could be riveted, you wouldn’t probably think this sounds hard but this girl just probably holds tools all wrong or something and just couldn’t get it straight. Ok, she needs to give it another go sometime and more practice…but…its probably not ever going to be one of this girl’s talents.

But its one of Grimly’s.

It was the main attraction really. The whole concept of ‘he has all this stuff and he made it himself’ has always been a bit special. Everything he makes has a little of his fantasy put into it, and a bit of love. Its kind of a handy talent to be able to have, it saves a lot of money and also it means things fit just right all the time. Its good for the planet too because he’s not unknown to recycle old kit into something new. Well its either that or run out of space entirely!

So…what things has he made?

A glance at the gallery page should give you an impression of that..anything leather has been made by him - cuffs, collars, harnesses, suspension rigs..in addition to that he’s made a lot of metal equipment now too including the scavengers daughter and other bondage frames and restraints.

The signature piece is of course though the dentist chair and associated accessories. The dentist chair has built in bondage, electrical contacts, a vaccuum point, a mount for the fuck machine and clamps to hold vibrators. Other equipment that he has made to compliment it include the mind control mask which allows flashy lights to be displayed to the victim in time with electrocution, the video mask - which allows the victim to see what’s happening from the torturer’s point of view, and of course the electro-vac torture bra.

Ok, ok so maybe its showing off a little and a bit fancier than the average efforts of st andrews cross and spreader bars…but then…everyone starts somewhere and Grimly was no exception to this and in fact his skill has improved just in the time this girl has known him. For anyone that wants advice on making kit there are a few useful links and books noted in the sidebar. This girl though is leaving the making stuff to him.

Something she made herself probably wouldn’t mean as much to her. It seems to mean more coming from him. It’s part of how things work and part of the D/s really that he adds this talent to things. 

Maid into what he wants

This girl has written a couple of times about how sometimes its as though she is her Master’s bondage doll or his toy and that when he plays with her he is dressing her up and preparing her for what he has in his own mind, as though he is making something from his imagination come to life.

Though of course a lot of those fantasies are mutual, or based on ideas she’s giving him too so its not to say what happens is from his mind alone. Sometimes though, this girl cannot second guess where play is going to head, or how it will make her feel until it happens.

So, following the exploits in the previous post, she did not guess what would happen next, or whether indeed there would be any more to that particular afternoon’s activities.

After all, what sort of evil man would want to torment a bound,orgasmic and electrocuted girl any further? Ok Ok what sort of evil sadistic git wouldn’t!  He unclipped her from the cage and led her to the middle of the room and slipped something over her head. She didn’t realise straight away until he started arranging the fabric properly, that it was the maid’s dress and as you can see its a pretty sissy one. Though this girl couldn’t see it, and didn’t care. She was too spaced out to really notice what he was doing anymore.

It just goes to show that once he gets her into the right frame of mind he can do most things, and she can’t do a damned thing about it. Ok, dressing her up in a silly maids dress isn’t extreme or anything, but if she’d known about it she probably would have said ‘oh don’t i’ll look bloody ridiculous’, but as it was she never had that chance, and left her being electrocuted with the added convenience of letting the control box sit on her hostess tray.

Really deep down this girl knows that he can make her do all sorts of things during play and he has the skill and power over her to do so. Its no different really to the hypnotized audience members made to bark like a dog or pretend they’re famous. 

No difference at all.

And decidedly more stimulating and much much more orgasmic.

Sexually charged

When this girl first got into BDSM electro-play wasn’t the first thing she tried (or even heard about) because she started as quite a lot of people probably do by exploring corporal punishment, light bondage and ‘tie & tease’ type play.

The very first experience she had with electricity was at a munch with someone’s violet wand. A violet wand feels very tingly, looks quite spectacular and feels almost like pins and needles as it makes contact with the skin. But it literally only touches the surface of what possibilties electro play has to offer.

There are so many different types of electro-units you can get such as tens, or e-stim but the best by far that this girl has experienced is of course the ET312.

Its probably one of the main toys that Grimly hasn’t made himself that underlines what BDSM with him is all about. In a few words - hi-tech, weird, and bizarre.

The first time this box was used on this girl, she was a bit wary of it..after all the first time you see wires connecting to an electrical box coming out of or attached to your body (especially delicate areas) is a little odd to say the least. But she trusted him to know what he was doing and so she had no fears about that.

Its difficult to describe how estim play feels to someone who hasn’t experienced it, especially given that the sensations can vary from pleasurable to ‘oh my fucking God that hurts’, the easiest way though is to think of it like a pulse type throbbing sensation crossed with pins and needles and a very strong vibrator. Certainly some of the vaginal and anal electrodes give the sensation of being fucked if the right pattern is picked.

It is something this girl has gotten very used to, as play with Grimly often involves some combination of bondage and electricity. Of course, thats not to say its the same everytime - its not - theres so many variations on that theme to do it a completely different way each time.For example, the other day Grimly dressed this girl up in her leather catsuit and boots and then inserted this combination of electrodes into her

vaginal -

and anal -

He then added bondage mitts, the leather hood, cuffs, head harness, belt & various locks and chains to give you the result you see in the picture below. Basically leaving this girl doubly electrocuted and completely encased and bound into a whole lot of leather. This girl got extremly spacy in a very short space of time, and no wonder, to be completely shut off from everything but to know that he is still in control pressing buttons to alter and increase the sensations delivered deep inside her gradually built up a very heightened sense of arousal. This girl was not used to standing and being electrocuted. Normally it happens with her lying on the medical bed, or in the dentist chair, or suspended, so to still to be on her feet was quite bizarre and quite trippy as all that was really stopping her from drifting off somewhere was the restriction of the bondage.

Eventually he led her over towards the cage, and clipped and bound her to it, so that she would be in no danger of falling anywhere. He sat on the top of the cage, on the medical bed, as he played with the control buttons, stroking his victim & whispering things into her head…some nice…some probably not so nice. Though of course, there was very little that she could do to avoid it.

In a way it was very much as though she was some sort of kinky doll being charged up for more devilment. Electro play has the very odd though completely welcomed effect of getting this girl very stimulated very very quickly, especially given this particular predicament. Grimly was obviously very turned on too, and took the gag off her face and knelt on the bed and pushed his cock through the leather hood into her mouth. This is quite unusual, because its not quite often he’ll use or fuck her in the playroom, he normally saves his own physical pleasure for AFTER the torture as though its her way of pleasuring him for all his efforts.

This girl wasn’t complaining about that. Its actually rather nice (probably the wrong word but still) to be bound, wrapped up in leather, and electrocuted whilst pleasing him. Though its not the easiest thing in the world to do given a face of leather and a spaced out mind. She did her best to please him, as he gradually increased the electricity, increasing her arousal and her desire for him for once, to actually cum. But he didn’t. Its almost part of the game, because he doesn’t he reinforces the fact that he’s still in control of her body and his own and there’s not a damn thing she can do about it. Sometimes it gets utterly frustrating!

Despite the fact he didn’t orgasm, this girl did. Lots. Though only when he said the right word or clicked his fingers.

Play with him always seems to reinforce the fact that he is completely in control , that he will do what he wants to entertain himself and there’s not really a lot this girl can do about it.

That’s why its fun and that’s why she gets off on it, because everything he does to her body reminds her what she is.

His toy.

* For more useful advice regarding safe electro-play - visit

Uncle Abdul’s site.

For more of the pictures from the above set, visit Grimly’s flickr :

Literary effort

Apologies if this turns into a rant.

Whenever this girl is writing something, whether it be a blog, an email, a letter, anything, she tries to make the effort to think about what it is she wants to say and the best way of communicating it to the potential reader.

So…she has to totally shake her head at the likes of this from her flickr inbox (in advance this girl is sorry if you’re the writer but it shows fuck all effort!)

I regularly travel in Europe and the USA for short trips and am curious about encounters with women and couples (the chemistry has to be there). Not too experienced in the lifestyle but fast learner.
I am Dutch, white, 35, tall (6′2), blue eyes, and rather good-looking. I hold a high university degree but at the same time I am a man of the world who knows there is more to life than work alone.
I am not really looking to just get laid but would like to explore new horizons.
I prefer my women to be goodlooking (in the eye of the beholder ) (preferably slim) and it would be a plus if you are on the taller side. I am not a size fan when it comes to breasts (B-cup is ideal, larger is OK depending on who wears them), I do love long legs. This might all seem picky but these are only ideals (and nobody is ideal). However, there is no use in meeting if there is no chemistry so if you are completely opposite, we may not match very well.

I am only interested in women but I am open to threesomes where the husband watches or joins. No bi play, don’t mind some occasional touching. Entertaining a bisexual female couple is one of my fantasies.

Interested? Send me an E-mail with a pic and I’ll send one in return.
I’m eager to post pics love to leave comments. I get very turned on by looking at and commenting on pics. if you get off on knowing that other people are getting off to your pics then please add me as friend or family.

Ok.

Maybe its bad manners to post a personal email on a weblog. But thats just it. It wasn’t personal. It was the same as the drivel on his profile word for word.

This shows no indication of having read this girl’s profile or indeed anything on her blog, so chances that he will come across this entry are probably quite slim. If he had read her profile, he might have understood that she would not be looking to help expand another man’s horizons, and if he’d looked at her pictures closely she would see she’s quite far off his ‘ideal’.

So whilst a 6′ 2′ dutchman might be a bit sexier than a 5′5 scotsman, it doesn’t sound like the dutchman has any of the intelligence or creativity that this girl has come to love.

This girl firmly believes there is someone out there for everyone, but, if you want to have a chance of finding that person you need to at least show a little effort and a willingness to want to try and find things out about the person instead of direct (and impersonal) hit.

When this girl ‘hit’ on Grimly, she tried to find out as much as she could about him first, she read some of his blogs (on IC), looked at his pictures and also she had already heard of him by reputation and she tried to communicate with him in an intelligent, funny and interesting way. Something must have worked because he agreed to play with her after all and just as well that he did!

The written word is of course the main format for communicating on the internet, so it means more if you do it with a little effort, rather than just pressing copy+paste, because such action just gets deleted.

This girl loves hearing from people who are interested in what she does, but it just means so much more when they do so with the indication that they at least understand a bit more about her than that she is female with a pulse!

Rant over!